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"If you're not careful," Roger said, "you're going to find yourself a married man."
Noah stopped typing. He had bought a typewriter on time payments when he found himself writing so many letters.
"No danger," he said. "I'm not going to get married." But the truth was he had thought about it again and again, and had even, in his letters, written tentatively about it to Hope.
"Maybe it wouldn't be so bad at that," Roger said. "She's a fine girl and it'd keep you out of the draft."
They had avoided thinking about the draft. Luckily, Noah's number was among the highest. The Army hung somewhere in the future, like a dark, distant cloud in the sky.
"No," said Roger, judiciously, from the floor, "I have only two things against the girl. One, she keeps you from getting any sleep. Two, you know what. Otherwise, she's done you a world of good."
Noah glanced at his friend gratefully.
"Still," Roger said, "she ought to go to bed with you."
"Shut up."
"Tell you what. I'll go away this week-end and you can have the place." Roger sat up. "Nothing could be fairer than that."
"Thanks," Noah said. "If the occasion arises, I'll take your offer."
"Maybe," Roger said, "I'd better talk to her. In the role of best friend, concerned for his comrade's safety. 'My dear young lady, you may not realize it, but our Noah is on the verge of leaping out of the window.' Give me a dime, I'll call her this minute."
"I'll manage it myself," Noah said, without conviction.
"How about this Sunday?" Roger asked. "Lovely month of June, etc., the full bloom of summer, etc…"
"This Sunday is out," said Noah. "We're going to a wedding."
"Whose?" Roger asked. "Yours?"
Noah laughed falsely. "Some friend of hers in Brooklyn."
"You ought to get a wholesale rate," Roger said, "from the Transit System." He lay back. "I have spoken. I now hold my peace."
The wedding on Sunday was held in a large house in Flatbush, a house with a garden and a small lawn, leading down to a tree-shaded street. The bride was pretty and the minister was quick and there was champagne.
It was warm and su
He kissed the bride and there was a jumbled confusion of white satin and lace and lipstick-taste and perfume and orange blossom. He looked past the bright, moist eyes and the parted lips of the bride to Hope, standing watching him across the room, and the shorthand within him noted her throat, her waist. Hope came over and he said, "There's something I've wanted to do," and he put out his hands to her waist, slender in the tight bodice of her new dress. He felt the narrow, girlish flesh and the intricate small motion of the hipbones. Hope seemed to understand. She leaned over gently and kissed him. He didn't mind, although several people were watching, because at a wedding everybody seemed licensed to kiss everyone else. Besides, he had never before drunk champagne on a warm summer's afternoon.
They watched the bride and bridegroom go off in a car with streamers flying from it, the rice scattered around, the mother weeping softly at the doorstep, the groom gri
"Why," he whispered, "don't we…?"
"Sssh." She put her hand over his lips. "You've drunk too much champagne."
They made their goodbyes and started off under the tall trees, between the lawns on which water-sprinklers were whirling, the flashing fountains of water, brilliant and rainbow-like in the sun, making the green smell of the lawns rise into the waning afternoon. They walked slowly, hand in hand.
"Where are they going?" Noah asked.
"California," Hope said. "For a month. Monterey. He has a cousin there with a house."
They walked side by side among the fountains of Flatbush, thinking of the beaches of Monterey in the Pacific Ocean, thinking of the pale Mexican houses in the southern light, thinking of the two young people getting into their compartment on the train at Grand Central and locking the door behind them.
"Oh, God," Noah said. Then he gri
"What?"
"On a night like this. The first time. One of the hottest nights of the year."
Hope pulled her hand away. "You're impossible," she said sharply. "What a mean, vulgar thing to say…"
"Hope…" he protested. "It was just a little joke."
"I hate that attitude," Hope said loudly. "Everything's fu
"Please, darling." He put his arms around her, although two small boys and a large collie dog were watching them interestedly from one of the lawns.
She slipped away. "Keep your hands off me," she said. She walked swiftly on.
"Please." He followed her anxiously. "Please, let me talk to you."
"Write me a letter," she said, through her tears. "You seem to save all your romance for the typewriter."
He caught up with her and walked in troubled silence at her side. He was baffled and lost, adrift on the irrational, endless female sea, and he did not try to save himself, but merely let himself drift with the wind and tide, hoping they would not wreck him.
But Hope would not relent, and all the long way home on the trolley car she sat stubborn and silent, her mouth set in bitter rejection. Oh, God, Noah thought, peering at her timidly as the car rattled on. Oh, God, she is going to leave me.
But she let him follow her into the house when she opened the two doors with her key.
The house was empty. Hope's aunt and uncle had taken their two small children on a three-day holiday to the country, and an almost exotic air of peace hung over the dark rooms.
"You hungry?" Hope asked dourly. She was standing in the middle of the living-room and Noah had thought he would kiss her, until he saw the expression on her face.
"I think I'd better go home," he said.
"You might as well eat," she said. "I left some stuff in the icebox for supper." He followed her meekly into the kitchen and helped as unobtrusively as possible. She got out some cold chicken, a jug full of milk and made a salad. She put everything on a tray and said, curtly, "Outside," like a sergeant commanding a platoon.
He took the tray out to the back garden, a twilit oblong now, that was bounded on two sides by a high board fence, and on the far end by the blank brick wall of a garage that had Virginia creeper growing all over it. There was a graceful acacia tree shading the garden. Hope's uncle had a small rock garden at one end and beds of common flowers, and there was a wood table with shielded candles and a long, sofa-like swing with a canopy. In the hazy blue light of evening, Brooklyn vanished like mist and rumour, and they were in a walled garden in England or France or the mountains of India.
Hope lit the candles and they sat gravely opposite each other, eating hungrily. They hardly spoke while they ate, just polite requests for the salt and the milk. They folded their napkins and stood up on opposite sides of the table.
"We don't need the candles," Hope said. "Will you please blow out the one on your side?"