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R ay answered the door on the first ring. The eucalyptus waved its seared brown frilly silhouettes in the canyon below. “You shaved,” Kat noted, entering the perfect, air-filtered climate of the house. “Thank goodness.”
“Well, if I’m forced to live, I need to be able to stand myself.”
“I need to be able to stand you, too.”
“I assume you have a plan,” Ray said. “You would.”
“We go through Leigh’s journals and papers. We invade her computer files.”
“Her computer’s at her office. Later.”
“Her mail. Her cell phone bill.”
“On the counter.”
“Has she used the credit cards?”
“I called last night after you left. No. Let’s go upstairs first and rip the place apart.”
They sat across from each other on the expansive, nubby carpet in the master bedroom. The contents of Leigh’s dresser and closet, clothes and scarves and bags and underwear, lay in stacks around them. “What did Leigh wear that last night when you fought?”
“I don’t remember,” Ray said. “I made up things when I talked to the cops.” He thought. “Shorts. Her purple shirt? A favorite, with a V-neck.”
“Is it here?”
Ray rummaged around and Kat began to help him.
He said, “It isn’t here.”
“She was wearing it?”
“Yes. I think so. Her Rykas-the shoes she wore to run in-I don’t see them, either. She went upstairs before she left, I remember now. Maybe she took the time to change. I was too upset to notice how long she was up here.”
You’re not making this up as we go, are you? Kat wanted to ask. She managed to keep her mouth shut. Ray was on a roll. “What else did she take with her?”
“My guess,” he said, “as I told the police, although I was stretching the truth, I’d say she probably took her overnight bag with some shirts, a fresh pair of jeans, and underwear. Nothing I would notice was missing.”
As he had told the cops. “Did she keep cash at hand?” Kat asked, frustrated.
“She carried cash with her, kept an eye out for unique things for her furniture designs from vendors at flea markets, the kind of places where it’s handy. Oh, the Tibetan chest. I didn’t think about that.” He jumped up and went to the wall side of the bed, where a small wooden chest just the height of the bed held an industrial-looking metal lamp and a couple of paperbacks. Kat heard him laughing to himself.
“What’s fu
“Is this the antique?” Kat stood by his side. He peered in, pulling at the side walls, poking around. Kat saw immediately that the chest was clearly one of Leigh’s, red, hand-painted with a pair of cockatiels that looked like the pair Leigh’s mother had kept when Leigh was in eighth grade.
“No, she saw wood shavings inside the old chest that she said meant there was still insect activity. But she couldn’t get it out of her mind. It delighted her, the idea of this secret shelf. So she built one for herself. She showed me how it works but I can’t-it’s not a mechanism, it’s something stupid-”
“Let me try,” Kat said. “My hands are smaller.”
She prodded and pulled. Nothing. She fell back onto the carpet. “No secrets here.”
Ray shook his head and stuck his arm back in. He smiled. “I just remembered.” He showed Kat the piece of wood that caused the door to close without continuing all the way inside. “Watch this.” He lifted it. It rose about an inch. Ray reached below to the painted panels and pulled.
They popped open. He pulled out a jewelry case, a notebook, and a passport case with some papers inside. Kat thrust out her lower lip, raising her eyebrows.
“She’s a furniture maker. A throwback to simpler, more devious times.” He gri
They smiled at each other, and it seemed to Kat that she was doing the right thing, coming straight here to the lion’s den.
“I’ll take the notebook-” Kat said.
“No,” said Ray. “Let me look things over first.”
While Ray examined the Tibetan cache, Kat checked in with her sister. “How you doin’, Jacki?” she asked, waiting for the usual invasive questions. Instead, Jacki treated her to a storybook full of baby, how he made the ahhh sound, how much he cried, how puckered up his face got when he felt disturbed or constipated. She listened, saying “Uh-huh,” looking out the window. Her ears were glazing over, would soon harden like rocks.
“Are you listening to me? I have the feeling you’re not listening at all!”
“I am. I swear.”
“So how many poops did I just tell you Beau does on a given day?”
“You’re the one who’s good at tests. Remember how I had to take the state exams twice even though I know more than anyone else in the office?”
“Three to five,” Jacki said.
“Oops, gotta go, take care. Kiss the baby for me.” Kat pushed “end.”
Ray had looked through the small contents of the chest. “Leigh exposed herself to you when she showed you the Tibetan chest she made, Ray. She didn’t want to hide from you.”
“She knew I wouldn’t look in there no matter what.”
“She showed you its secret,” Kat said. Why was he so dense? “She tried to let you inside her life.”
He shook his head sadly.
Impatiently, Kat asked, “Okay. What is this?”
“She wrote poetry,” Ray said. “She had a little Chinese notebook-”
“A diary?”
He blushed. “Love notes. Little poems.”
“Hmm.”
“These are drawings. Furniture designs, visionary, nothing she ever built that I know about. Here are some mementoes-news clippings about your brother, some notes he wrote her. Her gold earrings from her mother aren’t here. Her passport’s gone, and our marriage certificate. And her will. She took all that. I know she kept her checkbook and cards in her purse. She took all that.”
Sitting down on the bed, Kat picked up the silk-covered notebook. She flipped through. Ray hung nervously beside her.
Leigh loved her husband, oh, she sure did, that much Kat gleaned, even though she whipped quickly past certain pages that made Ray bite his nails.
Some other, sadder poems featured Tom. Kat felt her self-possession begi
Picking through what was left, Kat found a gold chain with a small star pendant, a rhinestone pin from some other century, and gold earrings, small hoops that Kat remembered Leigh wearing.
A new longing to see her old friend welled up in Kat’s heart.
“There’s nothing to help us here,” Ray said, sitting down on the other side of the bed. “Unless it’s useful to know that, like you said, Leigh wasn’t trying to keep secrets and wanted to tell me things. She wanted me to know how she felt.”
It was useful to Kat, who now had a glimmer of understanding about the depths of Leigh’s love for Ray.
“I quit wanting to know because I was afraid to hear.”
“Nothing here will help us,” Kat said, giving in to her frustration. “Let’s go down and check all the mail.”
“Feel free. I’ll come with you. But I opened it all as it came in.”
“Today’s?”
“I went out and got it just before you came.”
In the living room, Ray leaned in the metal chair, arms looped on the back of it, wearing his usual tense, troubled expression. She sat across from him patiently, hand cupping her chin.