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'We make bad jokes,' said Jose, in English, and then in Portuguese: 'This Ben is quick off the mark.'
'Why did you say that? Why did you say my name, Ben, what are you saying about me?'
'It's nothing,' said Teresa, thinking that this Jose was not sensitive to people's feelings, not like Alfredo. Then she thought, But Ben shouldn't be finding out the truth like this, in this unkind way.
'What is it?' demanded Ben, looking into their faces, one after another.
And now this was the moment when she could say, 'Ben, there's been a misunderstanding .' But she could not make herself do it. She kept quiet. Alfredo looked uncomfortable, seemed apologetic — towards her, she noted, as if this awkwardness had been hurtful for her, not Ben. Jose returned to the bar to say something to the woman — an acquaintance, or more — Teresa reassured herself that Jose was not Alfredo.
Alfredo said to Jose that they should leave. He knew Teresa did not like the place. Jose would not have noticed. Meanwhile, poor Ben was sitting there morose, looking around with suspicious eyes as if not only the three of them but everyone had become his enemy. Teresa walked by the girl from Rio feeling that her past had put out a tentacle and was pulling her back into it. As the two walked to the car, Ben coming along behind, watching them suspiciously, Alfredo put an arm around her and said, 'But you'll stay with me, Teresa? You agree? And when we come down from the mountains we will get married.' He had said this in Portuguese, and now said in English, for Ben, 'Teresa and I are going to be married.'
Ben did not respond. And Teresa was thinking, How about Ben? Alfredo won't want me if he thinks I must look after Ben.
When they got to Jose's house Ben said he wanted to go to bed, and Teresa, afraid of what he might be feeling, joined him and lay there in the dark. Ben was not asleep. She could see the restless gleam of his eyes. He did not speak.
She was listening to the men talking next door, seeing them in her mind's eye. They were very different. Jose was a lean taut man, with a sharp-boned face, and wary eyes. He was pale-ski
In the morning Ben was silent and did not ask questions. While the car was being packed he stood staring at the mountains, and in between these long sombre stares, turned to look at them, his eyes puzzled, on guard. He began a stamping angry dance, letting out short roars of rage, and this went on until the car-packing was finished and the house was being locked. Then he stopped and stood staring up at those peaks, those cruel, tall, dark peaks. What she saw on his face made her go to him and put her hand on his arm, delicately, for fear of his anger. But he was not responsive to her sympathetic hand: he did not move, only stared, his eyes darkened by pain and by loss.
Teresa was thinking, Then he knows. He must know. Somehow he has understood it all.
In the car Teresa sat in the front, because of fear of feeling sick, knowing that Ben might be sick too: Alfredo was with Ben, and Teresa saw from how he sat that he was ready to reckon with Ben, if his anger broke out again.
The road they were on was at first wide, with townships along it, and the odd hotel, and then became narrower and began to climb. The air was thin and sparkling and Teresa ceased to care about anything but sickness and the altitude headache that crashed in and out of her head in cold waves. The road twisted up the sides of hills and then down again, for these were foothills, and there were still trees, which became fewer, and there were no longer pits of shadow across the road. They were above the tree-line. It was colder, and they stopped the car to put on jackets over their jerseys. Ben stood by the car and stared up, up, and then around, at the hills and peaks and rocky valleys where there was no one, and not a house anywhere. Late in the afternoon they reached the hotel, the last, on that road, which after here became a rough track. The hotel was used by prospectors, climbers, surveyors. They were the only people there. Teresa cared about nothing except that the movement had stopped, and she could sit with her eyes shut. Ben was silent. He stood by windows one after another and looked up. Alfredo went to order the right sort of meal — a light one because of the altitude sickness. And again arrived a tray with coca tea, which they all thankfully drank. They were over the 16,000-feet mark, and the only one who was not feeling the strain was Ben.
'It's that chest of yours,' said Jose. 'In this region everyone has a chest like yours, because the air is thin and you need big lungs.'
'Who, everyone? Where are they?' asked Ben. 'There isn't anyone.'
It was a cold night, with cloud drifting past the windows: nothing to be seen. They went to bed early, Jose with Alfredo, Teresa with Ben. Teresa was awake, because of her headache, and Ben was awake. It was dark and stuffy in the room but the whiteness of the mist outside, lit by the lamp that hung over the entrance, sent a thin pallor into their room. Teresa was thinking that if she told Ben now, that his own kind, his people, did not exist, it would be no more than what was in his mind.
They were up early, in a thin exhilarating thrilling air, the sun striking hard off the rock faces and the peaks. There was not a sign of mist, or of cloud. As they ate their breakfast, two men arrived; they pla
And now, reorganisation of gear, of belongings. They retained one room and put into it all they would not need, because from now on they would use their feet. And the car was locked and left where the proprietors of the hotel could keep an eye on it. Each had a backpack, filled with warm things, water, food; and Jose had a little stove, and a pan.
They were not going higher but keeping roughly on the same level. At least, Jose added cautiously, with an eye on Ben, not for today. The news that today would not see the end of their journey was received by Ben in silence: not easy to read his face, as he stared at the immensities around. What she believed she saw there made tears fill Teresa's eyes and she turned away. Before setting off, the four watched the two new arrivals walk off, up, into a steep crag that was keeping the hotel in shade.
That night they expected to find a hut, used by climbers, and tomorrow morning they would look for the rock face Alfredo remembered. Now they all had on their thickest jerseys and padded jackets, and all wore dark glasses. At first they were on a track, wide enough for a donkey, or a mule, but then there were paths, sometimes in shade, sometimes in sun. Alfredo kept stopping as paths diverged to make sure of the route: he and Jose argued about it. Jose said that they should choose the better-used paths, 'because that is where the rock men go'. Meaning the archaeologists, the palaeontologists, who discovered things in the mountains that filled the museum down in Jujuy. He asked Alfredo why his particular rock face (he called it 'your picture gallery') had not been discovered.