Guilty Pleasures

I pushed him away. “If I don’t fight him, he’ll own me!”

The waiter looked almost human, one of the new dead. There was a look on his face. It was fear.

I called to the thing on the stage, “I’ll come to the stage if you don’t force me.”

Monica gasped. I ignored her. Nothing mattered but getting through the next few moments.

“Then by all means, come,” the vampire said.

I stood away from the table and found I could stand without falling. Point for me. I could even walk. Two points for me. I stared at the hard, polished floor. If I concentrated just on walking I would be all right. The first step of the stage came into view. I glanced up.

Aubrey was standing in the center of the stage. He wasn’t trying to call me. He stood perfectly still. It was like he wasn’t there at all; he was a terrible nothingness. I could feel his stillness like a pulse in my head. I think he could have stood in plain sight, and unless he wanted me to, I would never have seen him.

“Come.” Not a voice, but a sound inside my head. “Come to me. “

I tried to move back and couldn’t. My pulse thundered into my throat. I couldn’t breathe. I was choking! I stood with the force of his mind twisting against me.

“Don’t fight me!” He screamed in my head.

Someone was screaming, wordlessly, and it was me. If I stopped fighting, it would be so easy, like drowning after you stop struggling. A peaceful way to die. No, no. “No.” My voice sounded strange, even to me.

“What?” he asked. His voice held surprise.

“No,” I said, and I looked up at him. I met his eyes with the weight of all those centuries pulsing down. Whatever it was that made me an animator, that helped me raise the dead, it was there now. I met his eyes and stood still.

He smiled then, a slow spreading of lips. “Then I will come to you.”

“Please, please, don’t.” I could not step back. His mind held me like velvet steel. It was everything I could do not to move forward. Not to run to meet him.

He stopped, with our bodies almost touching. His eyes were a solid, perfect brown, bottomless, endless. I looked away from his face. Sweat trickled down my forehead.

“You smell of fear, Anita.”

His cool hand traced the edge of my cheek. I started to shake and couldn’t stop. His fingers pulled gently through the waves of my hair. “How can you face me this way?”

He breathed along my face, warm as silk. His breath slid to my neck, warm and close. He drew a deep, shuddering breath. His hunger pulsed against my skin. My stomach cramped with his need. He hissed at the audience, and they squealed in terror. He was going to do it.

Terror came in a blinding rush of adrenaline. I pushed away from him. I fell to the stage and scrambled away on hands and knees.

An arm grabbed me around the waist, lifting. I screamed, striking backwards with my elbow. It thudded home, and I heard him gasp, but the arm tightened. Tightened until it was crushing me.

I tore at my sleeve. Cloth ripped. He threw me onto my back. He was crouched over me, face twisted with hunger. His lips curled back from his teeth, fangs glistening.

Someone moved onto the stage, one of the waiters. The vampire hissed at him, spittle ru

It came for me in a blinding rush of speed and hunger. I pressed the silver knife over his heart. A trickle of blood glistened down his chest. He snarled at me, fangs gnashing like a dog on the end of a chain. I screamed.

Terror had washed his power away. There was nothing left but fear. He lunged for me and drove the point of the knife into his skin. Blood began to drip over my hand and onto my blouse. His blood.

Jean-Claude was suddenly there. “Aubrey, let her go.”

The vampire growled deep and low in his throat. It was an animal sound.

My voice was high and thin with fear; I sounded like a little girl. “Get him off me, or I’ll kill him!”

The vampire reared back, fangs slashing his own lips. “Get him off me!”

Jean-Claude began to speak softly in French. Even when I couldn’t understand the language his voice was like velvet, soothing. Jean-Claude knelt by us, speaking softly. The vampire growled and lashed out, grabbing Jean-Claude’s wrist.

He gasped, and it sounded like pain.

Should I kill him? Could I plunge the knife home before he tore out my throat? How fast was he? My mind seemed to be working incredibly fast. There was an illusion that I had all the time in the world to decide and act.

I felt the vampire’s weight heavier against my legs. His voice sounded hoarse, but calm. “May I get up now?”

His face was human again, pleasant, handsome, but the illusion didn’t work anymore. I had seen him unmasked, and that image would always stay with me. “Get off me, slowly.”

He smiled then, a slow confident spread of lips. He moved off me, human-slow. Jean-Claude waved him back until he stood near the curtain.

“Are you all right, ma petite?”

I stared at the bloody silver knife and shook my head. “I don’t know.”

“I did not mean for this to happen.” He helped me sit up, and I let him. The room had fallen silent. The audience knew something had gone wrong. They had seen the truth behind the charming mask. There were a lot of pale, frightened faces out there.

My right sleeve hung torn where I ripped it to get the knife.

“Please, put away the knife,” Jean-Claude said.

I stared at him, and for the first time I looked him in the eyes and felt nothing. Nothing but emptiness.

“My word of honor that you will leave this place in safety. Put the knife away.”

It took me three tries to slide the knife into its sheath, my hands were trembling so badly. Jean-Claude smiled at me, tight-lipped. “Now, we will get off this stage.” He helped me stand. I would have fallen if his arm hadn’t caught me. He kept a tight grip on my left hand; the lace on his sleeve brushed my skin. The lace wasn’t soft at all.

Jean-Claude held his other hand out to Aubrey. I tried to pull away, and he whispered, “No fear, I will protect you, I swear it.”

I believed him, I don’t know why, maybe because I had no one else to believe. He led Aubrey and me to the front of the stage. His rich voice caressed the crowd. “We hope you enjoyed our little melodrama. It was very realistic, wasn’t it?”

The audience shifted uncomfortably, fear plain in their faces.

He smiled out at them and dropped Aubrey’s hand. He unbuttoned my sleeve and pushed it back, exposing the burn scar. The cross was dark against my skin. The audience was silent, still not understanding. Jean-Claude pulled the lace away from his chest, exposing his own cross-shaped burn.

There was a moment of stu

They thought I was a vampire, and it had all been an act. I stared at Jean-Claude’s smiling face and the matching scars: his chest, my arm.

Jean-Claude’s hand pulled me down into a bow. As the applause finally began to fade, Jean-Claude whispered, “We need to talk, Anita. Your friend Catherine’s life depends on your actions.”

I met his eyes and said, “I killed the things that gave me this scar.”

He smiled broadly, showing just a hint of fang. “What a lovely coincidence. So did I.”