City of Glass

3

THE speech was over. How long it had lasted Qui

The sound of stockinged legs moving across the room finally broke the silence. There was the metal click of a lamp switch, and suddenly the room was filled with light. Qui

"It's time now, Peter," she said. "Mrs. Saavedra is waiting for you."

Peter looked up at her and smiled. "I am filled with hope," he said.

Virginia Stillman kissed her husband tenderly on the cheek.

"Say good-bye to Mr. Auster," she said.

Peter stood up. Or rather, he began the sad, slow adventure of maneuvering his body out of the chair and working his way to his feet. At each stage there were relapses, crumplings, catapults back, accompanied by sudden fits of immobility, grunts, words whose meaning Qui

At last Peter was upright. He stood in front of his chair with an expression of triumph and looked Qui

"Good-bye," he said.

"Good-bye, Peter," said Qui

Peter gave a little spastic wave of the hand and then slowly turned and walked across the room. He tottered as he went, listing first to the right, then to the left, his legs by turns buckling and locking. At the far end of the room, standing in a lighted doorway, was a middle-aged woman dressed in a white nurse's uniform. Qui

Virginia Stillman sat down across from Qui

"I could have spared you all that," she said, "but I thought it would be best for you to see it with your own eyes."

"I understand," said Qui

"No, I don't think you do," the woman said bitterly. "I don't think anyone can understand."

Qui

He was warming up now. Something told him that he had captured the right tone, and a sudden sense of pleasure surged through him, as though he had just managed to cross some internal border within himself

"You're right," said Virginia Stillman. "Of course you’re right."

The woman paused, took a deep breath, and then paused Again, as if rehearsing in her mind the things she was about to say. Qui

"I realize," she went on, "that most of what Peter says is very confusing-especially the first time you hear him. I was standing in the next room listening to what he said to you. You mustn't assume that Peter always tells the truth. On the other hand, it would be wrong to think he lies."

"You mean that I should believe some of the things he said and not believe others."

"That's exactly what I mean."

"Your sexual habits, or lack of them, don't concern me, Mrs. Stillman," said Qui

Mrs. Stillman blushed. "I just wanted you to know that what Peter said isn't true."

Qui

"Yes, they're true." Virginia Stillman released her grip on the chair and put her right hand under her chin. Pensive. As if searching for an attitude of unshakable honesty. "Peter has a child's way of telling it. But what he said is true."

"Tell me something about the father. Anything you think is relevant.

"Peter's father is a Boston Stillman. I'm sure you've heard of the family. There were several governors back in the nineteenth century, a number of Episcopal bishops, ambassadors, a Harvard president. At the same time, the family made a great deal of money in textiles, shipping, and God knows what else. The details are unimportant. Just so long as you have some idea of the background.

"Peter's father went to Harvard, like everyone else in the family. He studied philosophy and religion and by all accounts was quite brilliant. He wrote his thesis on sixteenth- and seventeenth-century theological interpretations of the New World, and then he took a job in the religion department at Columbia. Not long after that, he married Peter’s mother. I don't know much about her. From the photographs I've seen, she was very pretty. But delicate-a little like Peter, with those pale blue eyes and white skin. When Peter was born a few years later, the family was living in a large apartment on Riverside Drive. Stillman's academic career was prospering. He rewrote his dissertation and turned it into a book-it did very well-and was made a full professor when he was thirty-four or thirty-five. Then Peter's mother died. Everything about that death is unclear. Stillman claimed that she had died in her sleep, but the evidence seemed to point to suicide. Something to do with an overdose of pills, but of course nothing could be proved. There was even some talk that he had killed her. But those were just rumors, and nothing ever came of it. The whole affair was kept very quiet.

"Peter was just two at the time, a perfectly normal child. After his wife's death, Stillman apparently had little to. do with him. A nurse was hired, and for the next six months or so she took complete care of Peter. Then, out of the blue, Stillman fired her. I forget her name-a Miss Barber, I think-but she testified at the trial. It seems that Stillman just came home one day and told her that he was taking charge of Peter's upbringing. He sent in his resignation to Columbia and told them he was leaving the university to devote himself full-time to his son. Money, of course, was no object, and there was nothing anyone could do about it.

"After that, he more or less dropped out of sight. He stayed on in the same apartment, but he hardly ever went out. No one really knows what happened. I think, probably, that he began to believe in some of the far-fetched religious ideas he had written about. It made him crazy, absolutely insane. There's no other way to describe it. He locked Peter in a room in the apartment, covered up the windows, and kept him there for nine years. Try to imagine it, Mr. Auster. Nine years. An entire childhood spent in darkness, isolated from the world, with no human contact except an occasional beating. I live with the results of that experiment, and I can tell you the damage was monstrous. What you saw today was Peter at his best. It's taken thirteen years to get him this far, and I'll be damned if I let anyone hurt him again.”