Mindscan

"That's enough for just now," she said, moving in next to me, and slipping an arm around my waist. She led me in a half-turn, and with her support, I hobbled back and got my cane.

8

When I was a kid, I never thought Toronto would have a spaceport. But now almost every city did, at least potentially. Spaceplanes could take off and land on any runway big enough to accommodate a jumbo jet.

Commercial spaceflight was fu

The Jetway was already co

Our spaceplane was one giant delta wing. Engines were mounted above the wing, instead of below it — to protect them in reentry, I guessed. The upper hull was painted white, and the underbelly was black. The North American Airlines logo appeared in several places, and the plane itself had a name marked in a script typeface near the leading point of the triangle: Icarus. I wondered what mythologically challenged suit had come up with that.

There were ten of us associated with Immortex making the flight today, plus another eighteen passengers who were going into orbit for other reasons — mostly tourism, judging by the snatches of conversation I overheard. Of the ten Immortex tickets, six were shed skins — a term I'd overheard, although I rather suspect I wasn't supposed to — and four were staff replacements, going up to change places with people already at High Eden.

We boarded by row numbers, just like an airplane. I was in row eight, a window seat. The guy next to me turned out to be one of the staff replacements. He was about thirty, with that sort of freckly face that I'm told usually went with red hair, although I couldn't be sure what color his was.

My chair was one of the special seats Sugiyama had talked about during his sales pitch: it was covered with ergonomically sculpted padding filled with some sort of shock-absorbing gel. I wanted to protest that I didn't need a special seat — my bones were hardly brittle — but the flight was full, so there'd have been no point.

I'd gathered that safety briefings on airplanes were usually perfunctory, but we had to spend an hour and forty-five minutes listening to and participating in safety demonstrations, particularly related to what to do once we became weightless. For instance, there were vomit receptacles with attached vacuum cleaners that we had to — had to, had to! — use if we got motion sickness; apparently it's very easy to choke on your own puke in microgravity.

Finally, it was time for takeoff. The big plane pulled away from the Jetway and headed onto the runway. I could see shimmers in the air caused by heat. We rolled very, very quickly down the runway, and just before we reached its end, we shot up at quite a sharp angle. Suddenly, I was glad for the gel padding.

I looked out the window. We were flying east, which meant we had to go right by downtown Toronto. I took a last look at the CN Tower, the SkyDome, the aquarium, and the banking towers.

My home. The place I'd grown up in. The place my mother, and my father, still lived in.

The place…

My eyes stung a bit.

The place Rebecca Chong still lived in.

A place I'd never see again.

Already, the sky was starting to blacken.

I soon recognized the social difficulties of being in an artificial body. Biology gave excuses: I have to eat, I'm tired, I need to go to the bathroom. All of those disappeared, at least with these particular bodies. Indeed, I wondered if Immortex would ever add such things. After all, who ever really wanted to be tired? It was an inconvenience at best; dangerous at worst.

I'd always thought of myself as a basically honest guy. But it was now immediately obvious to me that I'd been a constant purveyor of little white lies. I'd relied on the subjectively plausible — perhaps I was tired — to get out of awkward or boring activities; when I'd been biologically instantiated, I'd had a repertoire of such phrases that would allow me to gracefully bail out of a social situation I didn't want to be in.

But now, none of them would ring true — especially not to another upload. I was humiliated by my inability to walk, and desperate to get away from this ancient, mothering woman in the thirty-year-old package, but was failing to come up with a polite out.

And we had to stay here for three days of tests: this was Tuesday, so we'd be here through Friday. We each had a small room — with, ironically, a bed, not that we'd need to use it. But I did very much want to retreat there, to just be the hell alone. I was still wearing the terry-cloth robe. I used my cane as we walked back down the corridor that had just defeated me.

Karen had tried giving me a helping hand, but I'd shrugged it off, and I found myself looking away from her, and at the wall nearest me, as we continued on. Karen was evidently looking in the same direction, since she commented on the view through the window we were passing. "Looks like rain," she said. "I wonder if we'll rust?"

At another time, I might have laughed at the joke, but I was too ashamed, and too pissed off at both myself and Immortex. Still, some response seemed to be in order.

"Let's just hope it's not an electrical storm," I said. "I'm not wearing my surge protector."

Karen laughed more than my comment deserved. We continued on. "Say, I wonder if we can swim," she said.

"Why not?" I replied. "I'm sure we aren't really prone to rust."

"Oh, I know that," she said. "I'm talking about buoyancy. Humans swim so well because we float. But these new bodies might sink."

I looked over at her, impressed. "I hadn't thought about that."

"It's going to be an adventure," she said, "finding out what our new capabilities and limitations are."

I did somehow manage a grunt now; it was an odd mechanical sound.

"Don't you like adventures?" asked Karen.

We continued moving down the corridor. "I … I don't think I've ever had one."

"Of course you have," Karen said. " Life is an adventure."

I thought about all the things I'd done in rny youth — all the drugs I'd tried, the women I'd slept with, the one man I'd slept with, the wise investments and the foolish ones, the broken limbs and broken hearts. "I suppose," I said.

The corridor widened out now into a lounge, with soft-drink, coffee, and snack vending machines. It must have been intended for staff, not uploads, but Karen indicated that we should go in. Maybe she was tired—

But no. Of course she wasn't. Still, by the time I'd realized that, we'd already veered into the rest area. There were several vinyl-covered padded chairs, and a few small tables. Karen took one of the chairs, carefully smoothing her floral-print sun dress beneath her legs as she did so. She then motioned for me to take another chair. I used my cane to steady myself as I lowered my body, then held the cane in front of me once I'd sat down.

"So," I said, feeling a need to fill the void, "what adventures have you had?"

She was silent for a moment, and I felt bad. I hadn't meant to challenge her earlier remark, but I suppose there had indeed been a "put up or shut up" edge to my words. "Sorry," I said.

"Oh, no," Karen replied. "Not at all. It's just that there are so many. I've been to Antarctica, and the Serengeti — back when it still had big game — and the Valley of the Kings."