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Nash nodded but kept staring into the fire. “I can’t believe I almost lost her.” And with that he suddenly started bawling. He tried to stop it but he couldn’t. The three men didn’t move.
After a minute of it, Hurley a
Nash got control of himself and nodded. “You’re right.” He finally looked over at Rapp, who was puffing silently on a cigar. “I’m sorry,” Nash said. “Maggie’s right. If it wasn’t for you, I’d be dead, and Sha
“Well,” Rapp said, “I’m just glad we could save her. As for your dumb ass . . . I’m not sure it was worth the effort.”
Nash started laughing and then they all started laughing. Nash lit Rapp up with a string of curse words and then said, “Next time you decide to turn me into a poster boy maybe you could check with me.”
“You’re my boss now. I can’t take a piss without consulting you first.” Rapp gave Nash a sarcastic wink.
“Oh . . . God,” Hurley moaned. “I was his boss once. A long time ago. Worst fucking two years of my life.”
“Yeah . . .” Rapp said, “I saved your ungrateful ass one time, too.”
Hurley started spewing insults across the fire at Rapp. The group fell right back into their normal stride. It was as if the pressure of the last week was suddenly behind them and everything was back to normal. They told stories and insulted each other and they all took it for what it was-a sign of acceptance and camaraderie.
Hurley a
Nash wavered and then said, “I’m not sure. I don’t think I’m exactly a paragon of mental stability at the moment.”
“Well . . . all things considered I’d like to make the call.”
“You want me to pass the buck.” Nash shook his head. “Not very noble.”
“Mike,” Rapp said, “you have a great family. For their sake, and yours, I tried to put you on a different path this week. The honorable one. You can’t do both. You can’t be a great father and husband and do the shit we do. Something has to give.”
Nash stared into the fire and thought about the conflict.
Rapp leaned forward and said, “Let us slosh around in the gutter with these guys. You go take care of your family.”
Nash didn’t say anything for a long while and then he nodded as if he’d made up his mind. He stood and tossed his empty beer can in the fire. He watched it turn red hot and begin to crumble. He turned to Rapp and said, “Thanks.”
They watched him walk away into the darkness between the fire and the house.
Rapp looked at Coleman and Hurley, a look of disappointment on his face, and then he heard Nash say, “I’m going to go take care of my family. Good night, guys.”