Noah's Compass

All Liam wanted now was to take back everything he’d said. He had never intended to cause the man distress. In fact, he wasn’t sure what he’d intended, beyond gaining a few moments of conversation with the assistant. He said, “Oh, no, it wasn’t an actual promise. It was more like…” He turned to the assistant, hoping she could somehow rescue him. “Maybe I misunderstood,” he told her. “I must have. I’m sure I did. You know how it is at these galas: glasses clinking, music playing, everyone talking at once…”

“Oh, sometimes people can’t hear themselves think,” she said.

That low, clear, level voice-the voice that had murmured “Verity” in Dr. Morrow’s waiting room-made Liam feel reassured, although he couldn’t say exactly why. He gave her his widest smile. “I’m sorry,” he told her, “I don’t remember your name.”

“I wasn’t there.”

“Oh. Sorry.”

He knew he must look like a fool, with all these “sorry”s. He was doing everything wrong. “It’s just…” he said, “I mistrust my memory so these days; I always act on the assumption that I’ve met somebody even when I haven’t.” His laugh came out sounding false, at least to his own ears. “I have the world’s worst memory,” he told Ishmael Cope.

Which was a stroke of genius, come to think of it. Without pla

But Ishmael Cope said, “That must be difficult. And you don’t look all that old, either.”

“I’m not. I’m sixty.”

“Only sixty? Then there’s no excuse whatsoever.”

This was becoming a

“The trick is mental exercise,” Ishmael Cope said to Liam. “Work crossword puzzles. Solve brainteasers.”

“I’ll have to try that,” Liam said.

He was developing an active dislike for the man. But he gave the assistant another wide smile and said, “I didn’t mean to hold you both up.”

“About the interview…” she said. She glanced uncertainly at Ishmael Cope.

But Liam said, “Oh, no, really, it’s not important. It’s quite all right. I don’t need a job. I don’t want a job. I was only, you know…”

He was edging away as he spoke, backing off in the direction he had just come from. “Good to see you both,” he said. “Sorry to… Goodbye.”

He turned and plunged off blindly.

Idiot.

Traffic was picking up now, and more pedestrians dotted the sidewalk, all bustling toward their offices with briefcases and folded newspapers. He was the only one empty-handed. Everyone else had someplace to get to. He slowed his pace and surveyed each building he passed with an intent, abstracted expression, as if he were hunting a specific address.

What on earth had he expected from that encounter, anyway? Even if things had gone as he’d hoped-if he and the assistant had struck up a separate conversation, if she had admitted outright the true nature of her role-how would that have helped him? She wasn’t going to drop everything and come be his rememberer. In any event, she couldn’t help him retrieve an experience she hadn’t been there for. And what good would it have done even if she could retrieve it?

He really was losing his mind, he thought.

When he reached his car he found he’d been issued a parking ticket. Oh, damn. He plucked it from the windshield and frowned at it. Twenty-seven dollars. For nothing.

“Excuse me?” someone called.

He looked up. The assistant was hurrying toward him, pink-faced and out of breath, clutching her purse to her pillowy bosom with both hands. “Excuse me, I just wanted to thank you,” she said when she arrived in front of him.

“Thank me for what?” he asked.

“It was kind of you to be so understanding back there. Somebody else might have… pushed. Might have pressed him.”

“Oh, that’s okay,” he said, meaninglessly.

“Mr… Pe

“Pe

“Liam. I’m Eunice, Mr. Cope’s assistant. Liam, I’m not at liberty to explain but… I guess you must have realized that Mr. C. is not in charge of hiring.”

“I understand perfectly,” he said. “Don’t give it a thought.”

If he had been the ruthless type, he would have pretended not to understand. He would have forced her to spell it out. But she looked so anxious, with her forehead creased and her oversized glasses slipping down her shiny nose; he didn’t have the heart to add to her discomfort. He said, “I meant it when I said I didn’t need a job. I really don’t. Honest.”

She gazed at him for such a long moment that he wondered if she had misheard him. And he was sure of it when she told him, finally, “You’re a very nice man, Liam.”

“No, no, I-”

“Where is it you’re employed?” she said.

“Right now? Well, right now, um…”

She reached out and laid a hand briefly on his arm. “Forgive me. Please forget I asked that,” she said.

“Oh, it’s not a secret,” he said. “I used to teach fifth grade. The school is downsizing at the moment, but that’s okay. I might retire anyhow.”

She said, “Liam, would you like to get a cup of coffee?”

“Oh!”

“Someplace nearby?”

“I would love to, but-shouldn’t you be at work?”

“I’m finished with work,” she said.

“You are?”

“Well, at least for…” She checked her watch-a big clunky thing on a leather wristband even thicker than her sandal straps. “At least for an hour or so,” she said. “I just have to be there for transitions.”

“Transitions,” Liam repeated.

“Getting Mr. C. from one place to another place. Till ten o’clock he’ll be in his office, reading The Wall Street Journal.”

“I see.”

Liam allowed her some time to expand on that topic, but she didn’t. Instead she said, “PeeWee’s is good.”

“Pardon?”

“For coffee. PeeWee’s Café.”

“Oh, fine,” Liam said. “Is that in walking distance?”

“It’s right around the corner.”

He looked down at the parking ticket he held. Then he turned and jammed it back under the windshield wiper. “Let’s go, then,” he told her.

He couldn’t believe his luck. As they headed up the street he had to keep fighting back a huge grin.

Although now that he had her all to himself, what was he going to ask? Nothing came to mind. Really he wanted to reach out and touch her-even just touch her skirt, as if she were some sort of talisman. But he dug both hands in his trouser pockets instead, and he was careful not to brush against her as they walked.

“The hiring and firing at Cope is handled by a man named McPherson,” Eunice told him. “Unfortunately, I don’t know him well.”

“Oh, that’s all right,” Liam said.

“I was hired myself by Mrs. Cope.”

This was getting more interesting. Liam said, “Why was that?”

“Oh, it’s a long story, but my point is, I didn’t have many dealings with the Perso

“How did Mrs. Cope find you?” Liam asked.

“She’s friends with my mother.”

“Oh.”

He waited. Eunice walked beside him in a companionable silence. She had stopped hugging her purse by now. It swung from her shoulder with a faint rattling sound, as if it were full of ping-pong balls.

“The two of them play bridge together,” Eunice said. “So… you know.”

No, he didn’t know. He looked at her expectantly.

“I don’t suppose you play bridge,” Eunice said.

“No.”

“Oh.”

“What?” he asked. “If I did play, you’d get me into a game with Mrs. Cope?”

He was being facetious, but she seemed to give the question serious consideration before she said, “No, I don’t guess that’s too practical. Well, back to Mr. McPherson, then.”

It was on the tip of Liam’s tongue to remind her that he wasn’t job hunting. Since the job hunt seemed to be his main attraction, however, he kept silent.