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But as she stepped to the Chevy, fishing in her handbag for a pen and some paper, she glanced inside and her heart shivered at the sight: a jacket, a clutter of papers and half-hidden beneath them a pistol and some plastic bags, which contained white powder-drugs, Liz assumed.
Oh, yes, she now thought, her daughter, little Beth A
Liz’s foot rose from the pedal and the Singer fell silent. She lifted the clamp and cut the dangling threads. She pulled it on and slipped a few things into the pocket, examined herself in the mirror and decided that she was satisfied with the work.
Then she stared at her dim reflection. Leave! a voice in her head said. She’s a threat! Get out now before Beth A
But after a moment of debate Liz sighed. One of the reasons she’d moved here in the first place was that she’d learned her daughter had relocated to the Northwest. Liz had been meaning to try to track the girl down but had found herself oddly reluctant to do so. No, she’d stay, she’d meet with Beth A
Sleep, my child… All through the night.
Then she shuddered in disgust. No, she couldn’t possibly use a weapon against her daughter. Of course not.
The idea of putting the girl to sleep forever was inconceivable.
And yet… what if it were a choice between her life and her daughter’s? What if the hatred within the girl had pushed her over the edge?
Could she kill Beth A
No mother should ever have to make a choice like this one.
She hesitated for a long moment, then started to put the gun back. But a flash of light stopped her. Headlights filled the front yard and cast bright yellow cat’s eyes on the sewing room wall beside Liz.
The woman glanced once more at the gun and, rather than put it away in the closet, set it on a dresser near the door and covered it with a doily. She walked into the living room and stared out the window at the car in her driveway, which sat motionless, lights still on, wipers whipping back and forth fast, her daughter hesitating to climb out; Liz suspected it wasn’t the bad weather that kept the girl inside.
A long, long moment later the headlights went dark.
Well, think positive, Liz told herself. Maybe her daughter had changed. Maybe the point of the visit was reaching out to make amends for all the betrayal over the years. They could finally begin to work on having a normal relationship.
Still, she glanced back at the sewing room, where the gun sat on the dresser, and told herself: Take it. Keep it in your pocket.
Then: No, put it back in the closet.
Liz did neither. Leaving the gun on the dresser, she strode to the front door of her house and opened it, feeling cold mist coat her face.
She stood back from the approaching silhouetted form of the slim young woman as Beth A
Liz remained in the middle of the living room, pressing her hands together nervously.
Pulling back the hood of her windbreaker, Beth A
“Well, hello, honey.”
“Mother.”
A hesitation then a brief, humorless laugh from Liz. “You used to call me ‘Mom.’”
“Did I?”
“Yes. Don’t you remember?”
A shake of the head. But Liz thought that in fact she did remember but was reluctant to acknowledge the memory. She looked her daughter over carefully.
Beth A
Liz asked, “When you called you said somebody told you I was here. Who?”
“It doesn’t matter. Just somebody. You’ve been living here since…” Her voice faded.
“A couple of years. Do you want a drink?”
“No.”
Liz remembered that she’d found the girl sneaking some beer when she was sixteen and wondered if she’d continued to drink and now had a problem with alcohol.
“Tea, then? Coffee?”
“No.”
“You knew I moved to the Northwest?” Beth A
“You always talked about the area, getting away from… well, getting out of Michigan and coming here. Then after you moved out you got some mail at the house. From somebody in Seattle.”
Beth A
Liz smiled. “I guess I did. I started to look you up but I lost the nerve.” Liz felt tears welling in her eyes as her daughter continued her examination of the room. The house was small, yes, but the furniture, electronics and appointments were the best-the rewards of Liz’s hard work in recent years. Two feelings vied within the woman: She half-hoped the girl would be tempted to reco
The silence was like fire. It burned Liz’s skin and heart.
Beth A
The young woman followed her mother’s gaze to the ring. She nodded.
Liz wondered what sort of man her son-in-law was. Would he be someone soft like Jim, someone who could temper the girl’s wayward personality? Or would he be hard? Like Beth A
“You have children?” Liz asked.
“That’s not for you to know.”
“Are you working?”
“Are you asking if I’ve changed, Mother?”
Liz didn’t want to hear the answer to this question and continued quickly, pitching her case. “I was thinking,” she said, desperation creeping into her voice, “that maybe I could go up to Seattle. We could see each other… We could even work together. We could be partners. Fifty-fifty. We’d have so much fun. I always thought we’d be great together. I always dreamed-”
“You and me working together, Mother?” She glanced into the sewing room, nodded toward the machine, the racks of dresses. “That’s not my life. It never was. It never could be. After all these years, you really don’t understand that, do you?” The words and their cold tone answered Liz’s question firmly: No, the girl hadn’t changed one bit.
Her voice went harsh. “Then why’re you here? What’s your point in coming?”
“I think you know, don’t you?”
“No, Beth A
“You could say that, I guess.” She looked around the room again. “Let’s go.”
Liz’s breath was coming fast. “Why? Everything we ever did was for you.”
“I’d say you did it to me.” A gun appeared in her daughter’s hand and the black muzzle lolled in Liz’s direction. “Outside,” she whispered.
“My God! No!” She inhaled a gasp, as the memory of the shooting in the jewelry store came back to her hard. Her arm tingled and tears streaked down her cheeks.
She pictured the gun on the dresser.
Sleep, my child…
“I’m not going anywhere!” Liz said, wiping her eyes.
“Yes, you are. Outside.”
“What are you going to do?” she asked desperately.