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"Who asked him to like me? Who knows what you're up to?"
"What do you mean by 'what we're up to'?"
"You know what I'm talking about."
"No, I don't. You tell me."
"I'm ashamed to." Suddenly burying her face in her hands, Hanli burst out crying. Then, with tears still streaming down her face, she began combing her hair before the mirror. In the reflection, she saw her mother bend over to pick up the scarf, her face frightfully pale. Hanli wished her mother would rush up and pull her hair so they could have a real fight and get some of that hatred out of their systems. But Qiu Yumei just stood there, wordlessly twisting the scarf around her fingers. Threads of pity settled over Hanli, who said through her sobs, "I don't want it. Give it to Hanzhen."
So Qiu Yumei took back the scarf, and the next day she wore it outside. Eventually it was Hanzhen who went to school with Old Shu's scarf draped around her shoulders. When asked, she said her mother had ordered it from Shanghai and that her mother loved her and not Hanli.
It was a different matter with Old Lin, whom Hanli treated with fatherly respect. In fact, this alone was the source of at least half the praise Hanli received on Fragrant Cedar Street. Whenever Old Lin was in the middle of a neighborhood chess game, she brought him food and tea, and back home she drew his bathwater. She even trimmed his nails for him. Qiu Yumei told people Hanli was trying to be an elder sister to Old Lin, treating him like a little boy.
"And what about you?" they would ask. "How does that make you feel?"
"It's fine with me," Qiu Yumei would say. "It makes my life easier."
Let's say it's a blustery day and that the rain is pounding the sheet-metal roof of number 18, turning everything wet and forsaken at dusk. A frustrated Old Lin is searching for an umbrella beneath the stairs. He never knows where the family umbrella is kept. He opens Hanli's door. "Where's the umbrella?" Hanli looks at him but says nothing, so he tosses things around until he finds an umbrella with broken ribs and torn oil paper, which he can't open, no matter how hard he tries.
"Chess," Hanli says. "That's all you think about even when it's pouring rain. Don't come ru
Old Lin flings the broken umbrella to the floor. "Don't tell me there isn't a working umbrella anywhere in the house!"
"There is," Hanli says, "but she took it when she went out. Would it kill you to stick around and pass up one chess match?"
Old Lin sighs. "Shit, what's there to do on a day like this except play chess?" He sits down and arranges the pieces just to keep busy, and Hanli surprises him by sitting down across the table.
"I'll play a game," Hanli says.
"Don't be silly, you don't know how to play."
"Sure I do. I learned by watching you."
"All right." Old Lin reflects for a moment. "I'll hand over one of my pieces. What do you want, cart, horse, or ca
Hanli looks down at Old Lin's hands without answering. She's acting strange today.
"You can have two carts and a ca
"Up to you."
Old Lin removes two carts and a ca
"Papa, why don't you two sleep in the same room?"
"Just play, and no foolish questions."
"No. I want some answers."
"She doesn't like me, and I don't like her, so why should we sleep in the same room?"
"But I hear noises in her room at night."
"She walks in her sleep. She's never been a sound sleeper."
"No, I heard Old Shu from downstairs-"
"Keep playing, and stop with all that nonsense."
"Everyone says she and Old Shu-"
"You're getting on my nerves!" He picks up a chess piece and bangs the board with it. "What you people do is your business."
"What do you mean our business? It's your business, too. Do you know what people call you?"
"Shut up! Now you're really getting on my nerves!" He stands up, grabs the chessboard, and dumps everything on Hanli. "You bastards won't let me live in peace!"
Old Lin scoops up the broken umbrella and runs downstairs. Rain beating down on the sheet-metal roof has turned the dusk wet and forsaken. Hanli is on her knees, picking up the chess pieces, biting her lip to keep from crying out loud. She tries to figure out what's up with her father. What's up with this family? She can tell by the sound that the rain is picking up, and before long she fantasizes that it is about to i
Hanli bursts into the little room in the Shu flat and plops breathlessly into a wicker chair. Shu Gong eyes her suspiciously. "Who's after you?"
"Ghosts," Hanli says.
"The electricity is out, probably a clowned wire."
"It's not the dark I'm afraid of."
"Then what is it?"
"I'm not sure."
"You don't have to be afraid of anything while I'm around." Unable to see Hanli's face in the darkness, Shu Gong grabs hold of the wicker chair and leans down to look more closely; but she turns away from him, the tip of her braid brushing his face.
"People should leave one another alone," Hanli says. "I'm not going to get involved in their affairs anymore, and they'd better not get involved in mine."
"Who's involved in whose affairs?" Shu Gong stops to ponder. "People should try to take care of themselves."
"I'm not talking to you," Hanli says.
"Then who are you talking to?" Shu Gong lifts a strand of her hair and tugs it.
"To myself." She slaps at his hand but misses, which he finds exciting.
"You're something, sure as hell." He yanks the hair out by its root. "It sure is long," he says, mesmerized by the strand of hair. "And really dark." A pulsating desire wraps itself around him; suddenly materializing, it emanates from Hanli, her natural scent making him limp all over. It is more than he can stand. He can hardly breathe. The time has come to inject life into the fantasy that visits him at night. Without warnings he throws his arms around Hanli, sticks out his tongue, and licks her lips. She screams and struggles to get out of the wicker chair, but the frantically licking Shu Gong covers her mouth with his hand. "Don't scream! Keep it up, and I'll kill you!"
Hanli recoils like a little bu
This isn't so bad. People should leave one another alone. Hanli smiles and gently pushes Shu Gong away. "We need a real date," she says in the darkness, emphasizing the word date.
"How do we do that?" Shu Gong asks, holding her hand and not letting go. He is breathing hard.
"Leave it to me, I'll teach you," she says. "Now let go."
"If you're playing games with me, I'll kill you." Shu Gong shoves her away. He is already very, very wet.
"I'm not." Hanli gets to her feet, puckers up, and gives Shu Gong a peck on the cheek. "I have to go upstairs. We'll do it. Just be patient."