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“Stephanie of Monaco is trash,” she said, pronouncing it “trush,” saying it as if they’d had a fight and Stephanie was refusing to give back Yeni’s favorite jeans.
I went in and sat next to her on the bed. It felt very exciting, sitting right by her, not knowing whether we would ever touch again. We both had faint smiles on our faces and avoided looking straight at each other. She showed me a picture of the princess looking sulky at a party.
“Is that bad, what she’s doing there?” I pointed to the picture u
“Not so bad, but”- and she shook her head in disapproval, a curl of black hair falling over her face-“trushy dress.”
I smiled and pushed the hair back. “What would you know about trashy, Yeni?” I love the language barrier between us. She doesn’t know my chat-up lines are crap, and we can’t possibly have big conversations about ourselves or our relationship.
She put the magazine down and slid down in the bed, pulling the covers up over her face. “Good night, Lachlan.” She giggled.
I leaned forward to kiss her. I only meant to kiss her on the forehead, but she pushed me off, giggling, and said, “Jyou piss off,” in a heavy accent.
I stood up and pretended to cry. “I’m as sad as Kevin Bacon.”
She was laughing as I shut the door behind me, that big dirty laugh that makes her tits wobble. I won’t try to kiss her again. I don’t want to be pushy, but I hope that it isn’t over between us. Her unavailability coupled with the complete sexual abandonment that lies beneath it is tremendously erotic. I can’t remember if having to strive for sex was always this exciting. It feels as though there’s a live possibility tingling between us in a way that never happens when you know for certain you’re going to touch each other again.
I’ve been reading the prison-lovers book since I came up here and looking at the pictures of Do
It seems bizarre that this article was published only three months ago:
Box 2 Document 12 “ Riverside Ripper Appeal to Go Ahead,” Scotsman, 8/30/98
This box is getting a bit full. I should get a new one.
A fresh appeal hearing was a
The appeal will be heard on September 2 and is expected to attract international press attention. Mr. Gow was denied bail pending the hearing, but this is not thought to reflect his chance of a successful appeal, rather, the lack of reliable risk assessment reports at this time.
This was because Susie had been sacked. They had to get the reports redone by someone else because Susie’s were challengeable.
A spokesman for Gow’s new wife, Do
See our DNA Special page 13: Racial Profiling, Probability, and How Hundreds Become Thousands on the Stand
I don’t want to read about appeals just now really. It’s twelve-ten and I should go downstairs and lie in bed with my eyes shut tight, straining to relax. I’ll stop typing at one. I can’t even get a cup of tea because my tooth’s heat-sensitive. I’ll put a hot-water bottle in my bed, come back up here, and definitely stop at one.
Box 2 Document 13 Notes on Women Who Marry Murderers
REASONS FOR MARRYING
1. Status, gives them social significance, attention-seeking.
2. Vicarious celebrity.
3. Vicarious murder.
4. Erotomania: killers ultimate macho men.
5. Inadequate intelligence.
6. Passion is fueled by deprivation of the physical presence of the other; suffering and anguish mistaken for passion.
All of which seem to apply to Do
PROFILE OF WOMEN:
1. Catholic; subjugation of women and sexual repression of Church ties in nicely to absent husband.
2. Often have had an unhappy first marriage at a young age, often to violent alkies.
3. Unstable upbringing, authoritarian father.
4. Recent death in family, often of abusing parent.
5. Low self-esteem and attachment to someone they think powerful.
6. When move to be closer to prison (usually six months to a year) lose all social support and become more vulnerable.
All of which absolutely do apply to Do
PROFILE OF MURDERERS:
1. Alcohol often present in commission of offense (not Gow).
2. Motive for marriage by prisoners: having stable relationship creates better basis for parole board (not applicable; D amp;G were engaged even before there was any possibility of parole).
3. These men are strivers in prison, often take degrees (not Gow).
4. Grandiose and narcissistic (yes Gow).
5. Killers exude self-confidence. Lack empathy and refuse to take responsibility for their behavior- blame others, often the victims. Claim victim status for themselves- killers victim of system. The whole relationship focus becomes saving poor man from victimization by the system (yes to all of this re Gow).
It is astonishing how many hits the woman who wrote this book made with Gow and Do
It’s one-thirty and I’ve got to sleep. I’m glad I’ve had my hair cut. I hope I don’t look awful in the photographs on Monday. I hope to God that Susie’s all right. I hope they’ll give her some sleeping pills and she isn’t hassled by anyone on the Big Blue Bus.