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“Maybe,” he said, breathing hard, “you’re not so good after all.”
As he raised the weapon, someone shot him in the back. I looked over for Hoffmeyer, but it wasn’t him. It was Harvey, holding Hoffmeyer’s gun. Harvey fired again. Thorne spun around but stayed on his feet. I got up, staggered forward, and threw myself into the backs of his knees. Thorne fired two shots on his way down. Rachel screamed. I landed a few feet away. The Glock landed between Thorne and me. He reached for it. I was faster. I picked it up and pointed it at his chest.
“Stop. Stop moving. Put your hands on top of your head. Put them up. Put them on your head. Get them up.” I couldn’t stop yelling. If I was breathing, I was yelling, adrenaline pushing the words out. “Don’t move. Don’t you move. Don’t…”
“Shoot me,” he said. “Can you do that? Go ahead. Put one in my chest. Right here.” His left arm hung limp at his side. Blood ran down his arm and dribbled off his fingertips to the floor. But his other arm still worked. He used it to point to his chest, to show me where to shoot him.
The three shots were fast and quiet, right into his chest, right where he had pointed. Cyrus Thorne fell back and died with his eyes wide open.
I swung around, looking for Harvey. I wanted to tell him I hadn’t thought he could shoot that well. I found Hoffmeyer, holding the wound in his side.
“He needed to die,” he said. “It shouldn’t have been you that had to kill him.” He started to wobble, but Kraft was right there to help him.
“Harvey? Harvey?” I turned around. Rachel was kneeling with Harvey. She had blood on her hands as she looked up at me. “What should I do?”
I crawled over to her. “Are you hit?”
“No. It’s Harvey. He’s bleeding. What should I do?”
“Hey…” I put my hand on his back to roll him toward me and felt something warm and wet. I pulled my hand away. There was a burgeoning stain on the back of his new shirt. It was a shoulder wound, an in-and-out. Painful but definitely survivable. I turned him as gently as I could in case the bullet had broken his shoulder blade. That was when I saw that the entire front of his shirt, one of his brand-new shirts, was also turning red, stained with the blood from a different wound. He’d been hit in the side, just beneath his rib cage. This one didn’t look survivable.
“Call an ambulance.” I said it to anyone who was still around and still alive. “Call 911.”
I turned his face toward me. “Harvey. Don’t go to sleep. Harvey, stay awake.” His lids were fluttering, but there was life in his eyes. I could see it. I laid him flat on his back and kneeled next to him so I could put pressure on the wound. I covered it with the heel of my hand and pressed hard. I could make the bleeding stop. I knew I could. If I pressed hard enough, the bleeding would stop, and the ambulance would come, and the EMTs would stabilize him, and he could beat it. He could live.
“Harvey. Don’t close your eyes.” He was drifting off. “Harvey.” His head lolled back, and he opened his eyes. “You have to stay awake. You have to fight. Rachel, make him stay awake.”
She took his face in her hands as I pressed harder on his side, but the blood oozed up between my fingers and ran over my hand. I couldn’t make it stop. I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t…I looked around for something to press over the wound, and I couldn’t find anything, and when I looked down again, he was looking up at me, and his lips were quivering. I leaned down, put my ear to his lips, and felt the words as much as heard them, because I knew in my heart what he wanted to say.
“Let…me…go.”
With one hand supporting his head and the other on his chest, I couldn’t wipe my tears. They ran in a furious stream down my face and dripped from the tip of my chin onto his collar.
I took my hand from his side. Rachel was crying, too, trying to get her arms around him. I lifted him enough that she could put his head and his shoulders in her lap and hold him. “I came back,” she said. “I didn’t want to leave you. I came back for you, baby.” She held him tight. “I love you, baby. I love you.”
Somehow, he found the strength to lift his hand and reach for mine. I took it and held on. I held on to him as tightly as I’d ever held on to anything, and I regretted every moment I had shut him out or held him distant and not let him close to me. I looked into his face, his soft, sweet face that had so often been etched with fear and doubt and pain and bleak acceptance, and I wondered if the meaning of a man’s life could be found in one moment, if his whole life could be lived for the purpose of getting to that single moment-a moment without fear.
He closed his eyes, and I reached down and touched his cheek with the back of my finger. I smiled, because he had shaved, which meant it had been a good day.
42
WE DROVE DOWN TO THE CAPE ONE MORNING IN EARLY April to spread Harvey’s ashes. We’d had a hard time picking the spot. The only times I had ever seen him completely at peace were when he’d been reading, so I suggested Widener Library in Harvard Yard or Copley Square across from the Boston Public Library.
Too boring, Rachel had said. Harvey was a lot more fun than that.
“What’s your idea?”
“I don’t know.”
“Where did you get married?”
“In a synagogue in Brooklyn, but that was because my mother insisted. He would have been fine with a justice of the peace.”
“First date?”
“That jazz club I told you about. It’s been gone for years.”
“Favorite date?”
She had to think about it, but then I could see in her face that we had our place.
We took the Truro exit and drove down toward Wellfleet. She couldn’t remember the address, but she remembered the street and thought she could recognize the house. After driving around for ten minutes, winding in and out among the expensive homes, she spotted it.
“There. That’s it. I remember that rooster wind thing on top.”
I parked on the next block. We walked back to the house, the scene of Harvey and Rachel’s favorite date years before. They’d come to a wedding of a friend of Rachel’s at this house on a warm Saturday night in August, toward the end of the season. They had danced under a tent on the beach, and that’s where she wanted Harvey’s final resting place to be, the only problem being that it was a private beach. It said so on the sign hanging on the big gate with the chain and the heavy padlock.
I looked back at the house. No lights on. No one stirring. There had been no cars in the driveway. I checked the fence for wires. No visible signs of an alarm.
“Screw it,” I said. We were about to break the law anyway by scattering human remains on a beach belonging to someone else. I handed the urn to Rachel, found a good foothold on the wooden gate, and climbed over. She handed Harvey across, then scrambled over behind me.
The walk to the beach was a long one, over a planked bridge that spa
Being a private beach at 10:00 A.M. on a workday, it was deserted. The smell of seaweed was in the steady, cool breeze. Seagulls dipped and whirled overhead, while smaller shore birds played chicken with the waves, scavenging the wet sand they left behind. But it was easy to picture the place in the summer with umbrellas and canvas chairs and kids and suntan oil.
Rachel stood in the sand with her eyes shaded against the morning glare. The sun was trying to break through the mighty steel bands of clouds that had wrapped us tightly since October.
“It was a big wedding,” she said. “Harvey said he wouldn’t come, but then I told him about the entertainment. They hired a big band to play live. They put the whole thing up over there, this big white tent with a dance floor inside. I’d never seen anything like that. Harvey had such a good time dancing that night. I think we were the last to go home.”