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He went to the front door and found the Sunday paper on the stoop. He looked out at the line of cars parked along the curb, trying to imagine himself last night, huddled behind one, a gun trained on Abe Glitsky’s back. It looked so different in the sunlight. Had he really done that?
Had he and Fra
He opened the paper in the nook and a front-page story got his attention right away. Hector Medina was back in the news. Fred Treadwell, it seemed, had now accused Medina of killing his dog and threatening his own life. There were two sidebars on Hector. One outlined the seven-year-old accusation that he had been a killer cop. Case closed. Hardy was still an ex-cop and ex-D.A., and that sort of reporting bothered him, never mind that he had been suspicious of Medina’s self-serving protests of i
For a second it crossed Hardy’s mind that maybe he’d done the same thing with Louis Baker. He was a bad man. Therefore he was guilty of bad things that happened. And it followed-once you got accused of doing bad things, you might as well go ahead and do them. In for a pe
No. Not in Baker’s case. He’d been at Rusty’s. He’d gotten shot after breaking into Jane’s, for God’s sake, looking for him…
Hardy put the paper down and was staring out the windows. He felt hands on his shoulders, massaging, coming around to rest on his chest. Fra
“Hi,” he said.
She patted his chest and straightened up. “I love you,” she said, sliding into the chair next to him, looking in his eyes, “and you’re confused.”
Hardy smiled. “Not so confused.”
“Good.”
“Not that I have any idea what I’m doing, what we’re doing, what any of this means.”
“That’s okay. I don’t either.”
Hardy took her hand. “It’s not casual, though, you know?”
“I know.”
“I’m just trying to figure out what’s my so-called real life.”
“Me or Jane?”
He shook his head. “Not just that. That’s part of it.”
“I’m not staking any claim, you know. But I do want you to know that I love you.”
Hardy looked down at the hand he held. Eddie’s wedding ring was still on her finger. He wanted to say a lot of things-that saying you loved somebody was staking a claim, that he didn’t know where to put his own infatuation, that he didn’t trust what he called “love, the feeling”-he trusted “love, the attitude.” The problem was that he had the feeling with Fra
He did, however, know that he wasn’t going to just say “I love you” right now. That was too open to misinterpretation.
Instead he lifted her hand and kissed it. “You know when I said I wasn’t so confused?” he said.
She nodded.
“I lied.”
Fra
“I’ve never thought of the ‘love as a window in time’ theory.”
“How about if there isn’t any theory?”
“Then something can happen you’re not ready for.”
Fra
“Yeah, and it makes me uncomfortable.”
“I know. So you want to control everything, but things can’t be controlled. Eddie being killed. Michael dying. Louis Baker putting you and me together like this. It’s just out of our control.”
“How about last night?”
Now a slow smile. “Last night was a freight train without brakes going downhill and you know it.”
“But something had to get it started.”
“It started when you rang my bell here. It started before I married Eddie. It started when I met you. And in our, as you say, real lives, we had it under control. Then this fu
“Well, your window of time is closing. Jane is coming back. I should move back home. Louis Baker’s in custody. Why don’t I feel like things are over? Settled?”
Fra
Hardy got up and went out to the living room, where last night’s comforter lay heaped on the couch. Glitsky’s file was still open on the coffee table.
Fra
“You mean with Baker?”
“I mean with Rusty Ingraham. But I’m also wondering if that instinct is really me just wanting to prolong things here with you, put off my return to real life.”
She rubbed her hands up and down the front of his shirt. “What’s unresolved?”
He crossed over to the table, picked up the file. “This stuff here. Also, in the paper this morning another guy involved in all this shows up around another violent crime.”
“But didn’t they get Baker at Jane’s? And doesn’t that mean he was after you?”
“Absolutely.”
She folded her arms across her chest. “Well?”
“It doesn’t mean he killed Rusty, or Maxine, or the guy in the projects. It only means he was after me.”
“Okay, but you can infer-”
“Sure you can. It’s what I’ve been doing all along.” He sat down on the couch and Fra
Fra
“If I couldn’t kill Baker last night, how can I do it now?”
“How would you be doing that?”
“Multiple murder rap, he’ll get the gas chamber…”
“But Abe even said-”
“Sure. But Abe’s instincts aren’t always wrong. Often, in fact, they’re right. I mean, I was so scared the last few days I wasn’t interested in anything but saving my ass. And that meant pointing to Baker.”
“And now?”
“Now, I think I can see for the first time that Abe might have had a point, back there when this whole thing started. In his shoes, knowing what he knew, and didn’t know, I’m not sure I would have arrested Baker right away either-”
“But Abe, knowing what he did, finally did arrest Baker, didn’t he?”
“Not exactly. Baker got shot outside Jane’s house, where we suppose he was looking for me to kill me.”
“But didn’t Abe say he was going to charge him?”
“No. It sounded like he said he was going to quit. Maybe let the Ingraham case slide and be happy to have Baker go down for the woman’s murder, or the burglary, or even breaking his parole. He’s fed up, is all.”