The Clinic

“In the script, huh?”

He looked down at his feet again. “Yes, that's a good way to put it.”

“If you don't mind, let's back up a bit, Reed.”

“To what?”

“Mandy Wright.”

“Mandy who?”

I smiled, crossed my legs. “She bothers you? More than Devane?”

“No.” He exhaled. “What do you want to know?”

“Tell me what happened. How she set you up.”

He cracked his knuckles loud enough for the deputy to turn around. Flipped his hair, combed his fingers through it, let it cascade around his handsome face and flipped it once more.

The deputy turned again, frowned, faced the wall.

Muscadine said, “Whew…”

“Still hard to talk about,” I said.

“Yeah… you hit the nail on the head. The basic issue is the setup. That fucking committee hearing.”

“The blood test.”

“Exactly. Devane hated my guts for whatever reason, must have decided right then to harvest me. Incredible, isn't it? Like a bad dream- for months I was walking around in a nightmare.”

“Tell me about it.”

“The nightmare?”

“Everything. Starting with Mandy.”

“Mandy,” he said. “Mandy the working cunt. She told me her name was Desiree.”

“Did you know her before you met at Club None?”

“No, but I knew hundreds like her.”

“How?”

“L.A. woman,” he said. “Like that Doors song.”

“Did she pick you up?”

“In retrospect, she must have. At the time I thought I was picking her up.”

“Where?”

“Club None.”

“You go there often?”

“Once a week or so. I was taking some night acting classes in Brentwood, used to drive home on Sunset. Sometimes I dropped in and had a beer. They must have been watching me. Stalking me.”

He started to cry, covered his face. “Shit,” he said through gigantic fingers. “To be prey-the violation.”

“Spooky,” I said.

“Sickening.”

He looked up.

I nodded.

“The degradation,” he said. “They cheapened me. I wouldn't treat a dog that way.”

I let him compose himself. “So you went into Club None and saw Mandy- Desiree- and-”

“She was at the bar, we made eye contact, she smiled, bent over, showed me her tits. Luscious tits. I went over, sat down, chatted her up, we moved to a table. I bought her a drink, had myself another beer, we talked. Next thing her hand's on my knee, and she's saying let's go back to my place.” Smiling. “It's happened to me before.”

“Did you go to her place?”

“We never got there. She must have slipped something in my beer 'cause the last thing I remember is getting into my car and then… God, I still can't believe they fucked me like that!” Big shoulders shook.

Acting? Maybe, maybe not.

“Then what, Reed?”

“Then I woke up in an alley a block from my house with the goddamnedest pain in my back and the stink of garbage in my nose.”

“What time?”

“Around four A.M., it was still dark. I could hear rats, smell the garbage- they dumped me like garbage!”

I shook my head. “Unbelievable.”

“Kafka. I tried to get up, couldn't. My back was starting to hurt like hell. A throbbing, dull pain, right over my hipbone. And it felt tight, really tight, as if I was being squeezed. I reached around, touched something- gauze. I'd been wrapped. Like a mummy. Then my arm started throbbing, too, and I managed to roll up my sleeve and saw a black-and-blue mark- a needle stick.”

He touched his i

“At first I thought someone had screwed with my head, too- given me dope, though I couldn't figure out why. Later I realized it was the anesthesia. I was woozy, nauseous, started to throw up, heaved my guts for a long time. Finally, I managed to stand, made it to my apartment somehow and collapsed. Slept all day. When I woke up, I was still in the dream and the pain was unbearable and I knew I had a fever. I drove myself to the free clinic and the doctor took off the bandage and this look came on his face. Like how can you be walking around? Then he told me, you've been operated on, man. Don't you remember? I started to freak out, he held up a mirror so I could see the stitches. Like a fucking football.”

He played with his hair some more, rubbed his eyes, shook his head.

“Oh, man. It was like… you have no idea. No idea, the violation. Fritz Lang, Hitchcock. This hippie doctor's telling me I've had surgery and I'm saying no way. He must have thought I was nuts.”

“Hitchcock,” I said.

“The classic plot line: i

“Horrible,” I said.

“Beyond horror- splatter cinema. Then I started to remember things. Desiree- Mandy. Us getting into my car, her leaning over to me, kissing. Jamming her tongue down my throat. Then fade to black. Boom.”

He put the palm of one hand over his eyes.

“The free clinic doctor's saying calm down, man, you've got a fever, better check into the hospital.”

“Did the doctor say what kind of operation you'd had?” I asked.

“He asked me if I'd had kidney disease and when I said no, what the hell are you talking about, he took an X ray. And told me. That's when he said I should be in the hospital.”

“Did you check yourself in?”

“With what? I don't have insurance.”

“What about County?”

“No,” he said. “Place is a zoo… and I didn't want any more documentation. I didn't want to go anywhere. Because I was already thinking.”

“About getting back at them?”

“About regaining my self-respect. It was only Desiree- Mandy- at that point. But I knew she'd just been the bait.”

“Did you suspect Professor Devane?”

“No, not yet. I didn't suspect anyone. But I was damned well going to find out.”

“So what'd you do?”

“Wangled a prescription for painkillers and antibiotics from the free clinic doc and went home.”

“You weren't worried he'd report it?”

“He said he wouldn't. They're cool over there.”

“So you went home to recuperate.” Telling Mrs. Green it was a back injury. “What about the stitches?”

He winced. “I took them out myself.”

“Must have been tricky.”

“Dosed myself up with the painkiller, rubbed Neosporin all over and used a mirror. It hurt like hell but I wasn't going to have anyone else knowing.”

“So you never saw another doctor?”

“Never. I should've, the scar's all fucked up- keloided. One day when I can afford it, I'll have it fixed.”

I wrote some more.

“It's still tough to talk about,” he said.

“I can imagine.”

“Oster asked me if I'd experienced mental anguish. I had to control myself from laughing in his face.”

“No kidding,” I said, nodding. “Talk about understatement- okay, let's move on. How'd you find Mandy?”

“A few weeks later- when I could walk- I went back to the club and saw the waitress who'd served us.”

He put his hands behind his neck, flexed to the sides, back and forward. “Stiff. I stretch each morning but it must be damp in the walls.”

“It's an old building,” I said. “So you saw the waitress. Then what?”

He dropped his hands and moved closer to the glass. Smiled. Stretched again. “I waited until she was off-shift. She parked out in back- in the alley- poetic justice, huh? I was a regular alley cat. Meow, meow.”

He scratched the glass partition. The deputy turned, looked at the wall clock and said, “Twenty more minutes.”

“So she came out to the alley after work,” I said.

“And I was there waiting.” Grin. “Being the hunter is so much better than being the prey… I put a hand over her mouth, a knee in the small of her back so she lost her balance, twisted her arm up behind her- hammerlock. Dragged her behind a dumpster and said I'm going to remove my hand, honey, but if you make a sound I'll fucking kill you. She started to breathe hard- hyperventilating. I said shut up or I'll cut your fucking throat. Even though I didn't have a knife, or anything else. Then I said, all I want is information about the girl I was with a few weeks ago. Desiree. And she said I don't know any Desiree. And I said maybe that's not her name but you remember her- remember me. 'Cause I'd left a big tip. I always do, waitering myself. She still tried to deny it and I said let me refresh your memory: She was wearing a tight white dress, drinking a Manhattan, and I was drinking a Sam Adams. 'Cause I know from waitering that sometimes it's the drink you remember, not the customer. She said I remember her but I don't know her. So I twisted her arm a little bit more and covered her mouth and nose- cutting off her air. She started to strangle and I let go and said, come on, honey, who's she to you to suffer for. Because I'd seen the way she and Mandy were acting- friendly, was sure they knew each other. She cried, stalled, got choked off some more, finally told me her real name was Mandy, she was from Vegas and that's all she knew, honest. I twisted the arm almost to the breaking point but all she did was whimper and say please believe me, that's all I know. So I said thanks, put my hand around her throat and squeezed.”