The Sweetest Dream

'I can stay in the basement flat, can'tPIwon'tbeinthe way. '

‘And how are you going to...’ but Frances stopped.

Andrew had an allowance and he had been giving money to Rose. ' She could claim that I treated her badly,’ said Andrew. ‘Well, she does complain, she tells everyone how I wronged her. Like the wicked squire and the milkmaid. The trouble was, she was all for me, but I wasn't for her. ' Frances had thought, Or all for the glamorous Eton boy and his co

'And are you – and Julia – going to keep her indefinitely?'

‘No,’ said Andrew. ' I've said, enough. After all, she's done very well out of a kiss or two in the moonlight.'

But now they were faced with a guest who would not leave.

Rose looked as if she were being threatened with imprisonment, with torture. An animal in a too small cage could look like that, glaring out, glaring around.

It was all out of proportion, ridiculous... Frances persisted, though the girl's violence was making her own heart beat, ' Rose, just go home for Christmas, that's all. Just do that. They must be worried sick about you. And you have to talk to them about school...' At this Rose exploded up out of the chair, and said, ‘Oh, shit, it just needed that...’ and she ran out of the room, howling, tears scattering. They listened to her thud down the stairs to the basement flat.

‘Well,’ said Geoffrey gracefully, ' what a carry-on. '

Sylvia said, 'But her school must be horrible if she hates it so much. ' She had agreed to go back to school, while she lived here, ' with Julia, ' as she put it. And she had said yes, she would stick it out and study to be a doctor.

What was burning Rose up, consuming her with the acid of envy, was that Sylvia – 'And she isn't even related, she's just Joh

Colin had said to her, ‘Do you think my grandmother's made of money? It's a lot for her to take on Sylvia. She's already paying for me and for Andrew.'

' It isn't fair, ' had been Rose's answer. ‘I don't see why she should have everything.'

There now remained Jill, who had not said a word. Finding them all looking at her, she said, ‘I’m not going home. But I'll go to my cousin in Exeter for Christmas.'

Next morning Frances found Jill in the kitchen, boiling a kettle for tea. Since there was plenty of everything in the basement kitchen, this might mean Jill had hoped for a chat.

‘Let's sit down and have tea,’ said Frances, and sat down.

Jill joined her, at the end of the table. This was obviously not going to be like an encounter with Rose. The girl was watching Frances, not with hostility, but was sad, serious, and sat holding her arms around herself, as if she were cold.

Frances said, 'Jill, you do see that I am in an impossible position with your parents. '

The girl said, ‘Oh, I thought you were going to say you didn't see why you should keep me. Fair enough. But...'

‘I wasn't going to say that. But don't you really see that your parents must be going mad with worry?'

‘I told them where I was. I said I was here. '

‘Are you thinking of not going back to school?'

‘I don't see the point of it. '

She wasn't doing well at school, but at St Joseph's this was not a final argument.

‘And don't you see that I must be worrying about you?' At this the girl seemed to come alive, leave behind her cold apprehension, and she leaned forward and said, 'Oh, Frances, no, you mustn't. It's so nice here. I feel so safe.' 'And don't you feel safe at home?'

'It's not that. They just... don't like me.’And she retreated back inside her shell, hugging herself, rubbing her arms as if she were really cold.

Frances noted that this morning Jill had painted great black lines around her eyes. A new thing, on this neat little girl. And she was wearing one of Rose's mini-dresses.

Frances would have liked to put her arms around the child and hold her. She had never had such an impulse with Rose: she wished Rose would simply take herself off. So, she liked Jill, but did not like Rose. And so what difference could that make, when she treated them exactly the same?

Frances sat alone in the kitchen, and the table which she had wiped and waxed shone like a pool. Really, it was a very nice table, she thought, now that you can see it. Not a plate or a cup, and no people. It was Christmas Day and she had shouted goodbye to Colin and Sophie first, both dressed for Christmas lunch, even Colin, who despised clothes. Then it was Julia, in a grey velvet suit and a sort of bo

Frances sat alone. All over this country women laboured over the stove, basting several million turkeys, while Christmas puddings steamed. Brussels sprouts sent out sulphuric fumes. Fields of potatoes were jammed around the birds. Bad temper reigned, but she, Frances, was sitting like a queen, alone. Only people who have known the pressure of exorbitant teenagers, or emotional dependants who suck and feed and demand, can know the pure pleasure of being free, even for an hour. Frances felt herself relax, all through her body, she was like a balloon ready to float up and away. And it was quiet. In other houses Christmas music exulted or pounded, but here, in this house, no television, not even a radio... but wait, was that something downstairs – was that Rose down there? But she had said she was going with Jill to the cousins. The music must be coming from next door.

So, on the whole, silence. She breathed in, she breathed out, oh happiness, she had absolutely nothing to worry about, even think about, for several hours. The doorbell rang. Cursing, she went to find a smiling young man, in decorative gear, red, for Christmas, and he handed her, with a bow, a tray enclosed in white muslin, that was twisted up in the centre and held with a red bow. 'Merry Christmas,' he said, and then 'Bon appetit.' Off he went, whistling 'Good King Wenceslas'.

Frances put the tray in the centre of the table. It had a card on it a

It was all so pretty she did not want to disturb it.

A white china bowl held a green soup, very cold, with shaved ice on it, that a testing finger a