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He took the Greyhound that time, too, stealing bucks out of Brain Fry's jeans. Scared when he got there, the place was huge, but walking tall, letting people know he wouldn't take shit.
Full grown, he looked older than his age, had few problems on the streets of Hollywood, where he strong-armed money from smaller kids, mugged old farts, ripped off a Jap bike from the Roosevelt Hotel parking lot, stripped it, sold the parts, got himself an old hybrid H-D Shovelnose from one of the bikers who drank at the Cave.
Best scoot he'd ever owned. Someone had stolen it from right under him.
He bunked in an abandoned building on- where was it?- Argyle. Yeah, Argyle, big empty apartment fulla junkies, place smelled of puke and shit and he never slept good, always looking out in case someone was out to get him. His size helped; so did beatin' the shit out of anyone smaller who crossed his path. And the nigger he knifed for looking at him the wrong way- that got around, he got himself a street rep.
The black leather jacket he bought at a Van Nuys swap meet got him tight with the bikers at the Cave. Onea them sold him fake ID so he could go inside and drink. Gettin' nice and thick with them, thinking he'd be able to join some club, then they just stopped actin' friendly- he never really understood why.
So kids split to Hollywood for sure.
The rat, too? Why not? The little shit was too small to fight for himself, so he was probably whorin' that ski
Gone four months. Sharla still cried once in a while and he had to yell at her to shut the fuck up. Cryin' but not doin' a damn thing to find the rat. Pretendin' to give a shit- what a stupid whore. Once she sat up in bed, middle of the night, shoutin' about sick-eydas, sick-eydas, over and over, him shaking her, saying what the hell is a sick-eydas. Her looking at him, saying, Nuthin', cowboy. I had a bad dream.
It was time to move on, get a real chick.
Twenty-five grand; this could be the way.
He was already ahead of the pack: knew Hollywood, knew the rat.
If he had to fill his scoot with blood, he'd get down there.
It was well after dark by the time he made it back to the trailer.
Sharla was in the kitchen, popping a beer. “Hey, cowboy, whereya been?”
Ignoring her, he found a flashlight, went outside, taped the light to his handlebars, and began installing the scrounged parts. The plugs were brand-new; he'd lifted them when Spanky wasn't watching. Latest Rider, too; the Fox of the Month was Jody from El Paso, Texas; those black nipples. She said she liked to putt without any panties on.
He was doin' good when the trailer door opened. Sharla stood there, T-shirt and shorts, no shoes. Hands on hips, onea those kiss-me smiles.
He said, “Go inside, make me somethin' to eat.”
“How 'bout a kiss?”
“Get me somethin' to eat. Move it.”
She gave that hurt little baby look. “What do ya wa
“What I want I can't get, so cook me up twoa those TV di
She obeyed. At least one thing the bitch did good.
By 11 P.M., he'd gotten the scoot humming, filled his gut, had three beers.
Twenty-five g's! Like onea them bounty hunters.
Sharla waited for him to finish, then tried to get romantic. He pushed her head into his lap and finished quickly.
Hoovered, zipped, ready to roll!
She was in the bathroom washing her mouth out when he pawed through her purse, found five more bucks in change.
He was at the door when she came after him, said, “Hey.”
He ignored her, checked his pocket for his keys.
“Where ya goin', cowboy?”
“Out.”
“Again?” That tone of voice he hated- like a tra
She took hold of his arm. “C'mon, cowboy, you just got here.”
“And now I'm splittin'.”
“C'mon, I don't wa
“Watch TV.”
“I don't wa
The feel of her- the way she looked and sounded- made him wa
He shook her hand off. She grabbed him again, got into that whining thing.
“You want it so bad,” he said, “go fuck onea them sick-eydas.”
“Huh?” she said. “What're you talkin' about? Bugs?”
That confused Motor, and when he was confused he got mad. He backhanded her across the face, and she fell back against the kitchen counter and lay there- didn't move, didn't argue anymore.
He opened the door- the night was warm- kicked it closed.
Seconds later, he was cruising along the access road to the trailer park. When he got to the highway, he remembered to switch on his headlights.
47
Thursday, at 6:30 p.m., after spending more fruitless time on the Eggerma
Tomorrow, he'd go through TV Guides. Any decent-size library would have them. He'd find one near the hospital.
He locked his desk, tried to free his mind of the Worry. Bad margins on the tumor. Lymph nodes full of cancer.
When he was with her, he was Mr. Positive. She'd let him know right away that's the way she wanted it.
We've got to keep everything normal for their sake, honey.
The children came first. He agreed with that- family was everything, but what kind of family would there be tomorrow?
Mommy's going to the hospital for a little checkup, guys. Just a couple days, everything's fine.
She hadn't shed a tear, spent every day since the problem began the exact same way: car-pooling, cooking, church auxiliary. Even lovemaking. Stu'd been reluctant, but she'd insisted and he hadn't wanted her to feel damaged.
Nineteen years ago, she'd been homecoming queen at Hoover High, Miss Glendale the following year, then a sorority sweetheart at Occidental, a 4.0 history major.
Just one tumor, Drizak assured him, relatively small. The family history wasn't terrible: Kathy's mom was healthy, but an aunt had died of breast cancer.
All in all, a decent prognosis, Drizak claimed. But Stu was a doctor's son, knew how imprecise medicine could be.
Bad surprises, Father had told him more than once, are part of a surgeon's life. That's why we all have to trust in the Lord.
Stu ached to trust, and for the past few days he'd been praying with the conspicuous fervor of a missionary. Inside, he was hollow as an atheist.
All those Please, Gods; Dear Jesuses. What right did he have to petition?
For the sake of the children. Always the children.
A hand on his shoulder made him jump.
“Sorry,” said Petra.
“Thought I'd shove off.”
Her hand remained there. “Look, if there's anything I can do…”
“Thanks, but we're fine, Petra. I'm sure it'll all go smoothly.”
“What time's the surgery?”
“Six A.M.”
“Don't rush back,” she said. “Wil and I will handle everything.”
“Okay,” he said, wondering if she'd try to hug him again. He hoped not. Not here, in front of all the others.
“What are your plans?” he asked.
“Thought I'd mosey over to Ramsey's place, talk to security, see if there's any other way out of RanchHaven.”
“Good idea,” he said. Petra had pointed out that they'd neglected to question the night guard immediately, and he'd been appalled… What would he do without Kathy?
He told Petra she was doing a great job and left.