Then Comes Seduction

Her hand was in his. Had he taken it? Or had she taken his? Either way, he was clasping it rather tightly.

He felt like a prize idiot. He turned his head and smiled mockingly at her, loosening his grip as he did so.

“It was just as well he popped off when he did,” he said. “His second child would have been a colossal disappointment to him. You must agree with that, Katherine.”

“Why do you speak of these things as if they are new discoveries?” she asked.

“Because they are,” he said. “I had a chat with some of the servants this morning when I went down to the kitchen in search of you, and they told me all sorts of things I had never heard before. We were not allowed to mention my father’s name, you know.”

“Why?” She frowned.

“He was a rake and a libertine and the devil’s spawn,” he said. “When righteousness came into the house in the guise of my mother’s second husband, his influence was to be forgotten once and for all. For the good of every one of us, family and servants. Come to think of it, maybe he would not have been disappointed. Maybe he would have hailed me as his true successor. Do you think?”

She ignored his flippancy.

“So you were told nothing of your own father?” Her huge, fathomless eyes grew larger.

“On the contrary,” he said. “I was told something of him almost every day of my boyhood. He was the man whose seed had made me bad, irredeemable, incorrigible, and any number of other nasty things. I was as like him as two peas in a pod-as two rotten peas, that is. I would never amount to anything in life because I had his blood ru

“Did your mother not have something to say?” she asked.

“My mother was a sweet lady,” he said. “Naturally placid, I believe, and very easily dominated. She needed always to have someone to tell her what was what. The servants claim that she adored my father. But after his death and my birth she collapsed into lethargy and a gloom that lifted only when Wrayburn took over her life and married her. She loved him, I suppose. She was also terrified of him, or at least terrified of displeasing him. Even after his death she would not say or do anything of which she thought he would disapprove.”

“She did not love you?” she asked softly.

“Oh, she did,” he said. “She undoubtedly did. She shed tears over me more times than I can count and begged me to be good and godly, to do all that my step-papa told me so that I would be worthy of his love too.”

“And Rachel?” she asked.

“She was denied her youth,” he said, “because the world beyond our doors was a wicked place and a girl’s place was at her mother’s side.”

“Charlotte?”

“Ah, but she did not have the bad blood,” he said. “And Miss Daniels came when she was still very young. She was also fortunate enough to be a girl. He was not much interested in her.”

He felt more and more of an idiot. Why was he spewing out all this ancient history? He never spoke of his boyhood. He rarely even thought about it. He was certainly not looking for pity-perish the thought! He was just surprised that this morning’s revelations in the kitchen had upset him so much, set the wheels of his mind whirling.

His father had loved Rachel. He had loved his own unborn self. He had been capable of love. He had died for love.

His thoughts were spi

“I think my father loved my mother too,” he said. “He stopped womanizing after he married her.”

She had their clasped hands raised, he realized. He could feel the touch of her lips and the warmth of her breath against the back of his.

“Only minutes before word was brought to him that my mother’s pains had started,” he said, “he proposed a toast to me. Son or daughter-he did not care which I was provided I was born alive and healthy. He actually said that, though he must have wanted a son. An heir.”

She rubbed her cheek back and forth across his hand.

“The servants worshipped him,” he said, “though they were by no means blind to his faults. Recklessness, according to them, was probably the worst of those.”

“They worship you too,” she said. “Though they are still not blind.”

“I think,” he said, “we might have been a happy family if he had lived.”

He wished he could stop spouting drivel. When was he going to shut his mouth and keep it shut?

“But then,” he said, “if things had not happened as they did, there would not be Charlotte, would there? She has always been very precious to me.”

Devil take it, would someone please tell him to shut up?

“Strange that,” he said. “She is his daughter. How can she possibly be dear to me?”

“Because she is herself,” she said, “just as you are yourself.”

“Katherine,” he said, “stop me, please. There must be all sorts of skeletons in your cupboards too. Tell me about them.”

“There are really none,” she said. “My life has been privileged indeed. Oh, I have lived through the unspeakable grief of losing my mother when I was just a child and then my father when I was only twelve. They were desolate times-and that word does not begin to describe them. But I always had my sisters and brother, and none of us ever doubted that we were loved or wanted. Even though Meg gave up her future with Crispin Dew for us, she never made us feel that it had been a sacrifice for which she partly resented us. Indeed, I did not even know about it until a few years ago when Nessie told me. I was always so secure in the love of my family that I find it hard even to imagine being a child and not having that security. I ca

Her voice had become thi

He could not blame circumstances for anything, though, could he? For making him who he was? That would be a sniveling thing to do. They were the circumstances with which he had been presented, and at any moment in his life-child, boy, or adult-the choice of how to think, speak, and behave had been his.

Still was.

He drew his hand from hers, raised himself onto one elbow, and smiled lazily down at her. It was time to recover himself.

“Has my sad story moved your tender heart, Katherine?” he asked, his eyes roaming over her face to come to rest on her mouth. “And is that heart smitten with love for me as a result? Are you ready to confess all? That I am one step closer to wi

He realized his mistake immediately. She would not view that as gentle teasing. It was too reminiscent of what had happened at the lake, by Jove. And it was unfair, dash it all.

Would he never learn?

But the words could not be unsaid, and all he could do was wait for her reply, his right eyebrow cocked, his eyelids hooded over his eyes, the corners of his lips drawn up into a half-smile.

One devil of a fine fellow.

God’s answer to the prayers of lonely, lovelorn womankind.

Or perhaps not.

She raised one hand as if to set it tenderly against the side of his face. Instead, her open palm cracked hard and painfully across his cheek.