Wilderness

She nodded and slipped into hers. It pleased him that she did what he said without argument. Not because I said so, though, because she agreed.

"Let's go," she said.

He picked up the carbine. "I'm not even sure which way," he said. "I'd say northwest." "Which way is that?" she said.

He'd known she wouldn't know. "Bear left, uphill," he said. "Remember, uphill is north. When you face north, west is to your left."

"Why not say left and right then?"

"Because left and right are relative to the way you're standing but north and south are not." She was impatient. "Let's go," she said.

"All right, but let me go first," he said. "You tend to get lost."

She nodded and they moved out of the small clearing. It feels like I'm leaving a refuge, he thought. It's no safer here than anywhere else but because we spent about eight hours here it's familiar and it feels safer. Amazing how we adjust. Safety may turn out to be relative too.

It was full daylight. He moved very slowly through the woods ahead of her. Walking very carefully, putting each foot down thoughtfully, feeling his way through the ground bramble and princess pine that tangled underfoot. He stopped frequently to listen. The second time he stopped there was a thicket of black raspberries. He gestured at them. And they both picked and ate as many as were ripe.

"Blackberries?" she said softly.

"Black raspberries I think. The blackberry bushes are taller and these don't have that oblong blackberry look, you know."

"How the hell do you know how high black raspberry bushes are?" she said.

He shrugged. "I read it somewhere." "I'm finished," she said.

He nodded and they moved on, bearing slightly west and slightly uphill, listening. Stopping, moving very slowly a careful step at a time. He held the carbine in his right hand. His finger on the trigger guard but not on the trigger, the barrel pointing down. It was a light weapon; with the fifteen-round clip fully loaded it weighed just over six pounds and it fitted comfortably in one hand. He could even fire it with one hand should he need to.

The forest was handsome. There were white and gray birch, white pine, and oak. There were clumps of second growth saplings and the low tangle of ground vines. The ascending sun made shade and light patterns through the tree leaves. Even though it was only early September, the sumac this far north was begi

As the day warmed the insects became more active and Newman stopped to put insect repellent on himself and his wife. Their hum was still frustrating but they didn't bite. Birds moved and sang in the trees and before them in the bushes. There were squirrels, too, looking to Newman oddly out of place in the woods, as if they belonged in parks and front yards. Christ, Newman thought, pretty soon I'll run into some pigeons and then I'll see a wino sleeping on a bench.

They had walked in silence and tension for an hour when they cut the trail. Here, where they crossed it, the trail was rutted slightly, and worn in some places to bare earth. He raised his right hand, palm open. Janet stopped behind him, next to his shoulder.

"Is it the same trail?" she whispered.

"Must be," he whispered. "How many can there be up here?"

"Which way is their camp?"

"I'm not sure," he said. "I can't tell if we are above it or below it.

I'd guess we're below it. If we were above it I'd assume we would have crossed that stream."

"Are you sure?"

"No, but it stands to reason. The stream was ru

"I still don't see why."

"Well, take my word on it," he said. "If you can't picture it, I don't have time to draw a picture for you."

She was silent.

"Of course streams will go strange ways, they follow the land." He was talking so she could hear, but in fact he was talking to himself. He often did that, talked to her so he could hear himself think. "But all we can do is go with the best guess, the most reasonable possibility."

He pointed up the trail with his forefinger, making a decisive stabbing motion with his hand, his thumb cocked.

She said, "I still don't see…" and stopped talking as he looked at her.

She nodded. They stood together looking up the trail.

"We can't just walk up it," she said.

"I know. We'll have to go along it in the woods. Every little while we'll swing over and cross the trail. Then we'll go a ways and swing back over and so on. That way we make sure that the trail's still there."

"What do you think they're doing?" she said.

"If it were me I'd hide in the woods near camp and wait for us to come back. But I don't know. They're used to bullying people and having people scared of them. They may think we're ru

"So you think they are out in the woods trying to find us?"

"Either way," he said. "Maybe in ambush. Maybe chasing us."

"Well don't we have to know which?" she said.

"We can't," he said.

"But can't you make a guess?"

"No. We have to assume both things. Sort of a variation of negative capability."

"I don't like it," she said.

"Me either," he said, "but there it is."

"Well, let's go. The sooner we find them the sooner this is over with."

They began to move up the trail, keeping to the right of it fifty feet, looking and listening carefully. There was wind, more than had blown since they went into the wilderness. It was not uncomfortable, but it stirred the branches as if someone were there, and it rustled the leaves as if someone were coming. They moved even more slowly and carefully. Hearing the bird and insect noises, the tree noises, the sound of their own movement.

The noise of the woods was continuous. It was one of the things that surprised him most about the forest. It was never quiet. The great, still forest of his imagination was derived from photographs and paintings. The real forest was always alive. Birds, frogs, cicada, squirrels, and things he didn't know of chirped and chittered and keened and hummed and grunted and rustled day and night. He was listening for human sounds.

It took them an hour to go a mile. Newman had a red scratch starting at the corner of his left eye and ru

They turned left and crossed the trail. It had veered toward them and they were barely ten feet from it.

"Jesus," Newman said, "not good. We might have walked right into them.

We're too close."

They crossed the trail and stopped forty-five feet into the woods on the left side of it. "We shouldn't be walking bunched together like this," he said. "If we blunder into them they could kill us both with one shot."

"I'm not going to walk alone," she said. "I'll get lost."

He looked back behind him. "Stay behind me as far as you can and still keep me in sight. Then if I'm nabbed you can still operate. You saved me last time."

"All right, but if I whistle like Chris taught us"-she whistled softly between her teeth, see soo-"you wait and if you don't see me, come back."

He nodded. "If you get lost stay where you are. I'll find you.

Otherwise we'll go around in circles for each other."

She turned away to look back of them. "Of course they could come up behind us."

"Yes," he said. "You're no safer back there. We cover each other. If I need you I'll whistle the same way." He smiled at her. "You know how to whistle don't you?"