Страница 88 из 150
He taught me that for all my empathy of what he’d gone through, it was nothing, nothing compared to living it. Of feeling the destruction it caused firsthand.
The partitioning of your psyche.
The corners in your mind.
The walls soaring sky high to block any memory of the pain.
That was what this was.
A lesson.
A teaching that I would forever remember. Always recall the fear, the loneliness, and the momentous understanding that just because I was human, just because our species was on the top of the food chain, nothing was guaranteed. There was nothing written that said we deserved happiness or hope, safety or sanity.
Some of us weren’t so lucky.
Some of us were forgotten and left to die.
He thrust again, his entire body tensing as he chased a release. “Please. I need it. Just one second of pleasure.”
Pleasure that his body might want, but his mind thrashed against. He was two people in one. The monster and the boy. The sane and the insane.
He grunted with frustration. He howled with despair.
He fucked me as if any second now something would snatch him, kill him, and leave him bleeding in the woods. His hips drove deep, and we both cried out. His cock hit the natural obstruction of my body, bruising both of us.
His forehead furrowed as his speed increased, short stabbing thrusts as he lost himself to his nightmares. He snarled with bitterness. Driven mad with anger, grief, and failure.
He was at a pi
He was about to fall.
I made the choice to be strong enough to catch him.
Lifting my arms, I cupped his face. I willed heat and gentleness to my fingertips as I spoke from the i
He froze for a second. His hips still pumped with the primitive instinct to copulate. He trembled. He panted. His eyes were glazed and lost to me.
But I didn’t give in.
I fought for him.
Because no one else ever had.
“Kas...look at me. See me.” I dug my fingers into his scruff, latching my nails into his soul and dragging him back from ghosts and demons.
He blinked.
I whispered, “Please...see me.”
And then, the world imploded.