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“What did he do after dropping out of college?”
“Bummed around, worked different jobs. Then all of a sudden he calls me, a
“When was this?”
“About a year and a half ago. He told me the academy was a joke, Mickey Mouse. He'd graduated high in his class. He said he'd called me just to let me know. In case I happened to see him drive by in a car, I shouldn't be freaked out.”
“Was he assigned to Hollywood from the begi
“No. West L.A. That's why he thought I might see him, at Cedars. He might come in to the E.R. with a suspect or a victim.”
In case I happened to see him. What she'd described was less a family than a series of accidental pairings.
“What kind of jobs did he work before he joined LAPD?”
“Construction, auto repair, crewing on a fishing boat off Santa Barbara. That I remember because Mom showed me some fish he'd brought her. Halibut. She liked smoked fish and he had some halibut smoked.”
“What about relationships with women?”
“He had girlfriends in high school, but after that I don't know- can I walk around?”
“Sure.”
She got up, covered the room in small, choppy steps. “Everything always came easy to Nolan. Maybe he just wanted to take the easy way out. Maybe that was the problem. He wasn't prepared for when things didn't come easy.”
“Do you know of specific problems he was having?”
“No, no, I don't know anything- I was just thinking back to high school. I used to agonize over algebra and Nolan would waltz into my room, look over my shoulder, and tell me the answer to an equation. Three years younger- he must have been eleven, but he could figure it out.”
She stopped, faced a bookshelf. “When Rick Silverman gave me your name, he told me about his friend on the force and we got into a discussion of the police. Rick said it was a paramilitary organization. Nolan always wanted to be noticed. Why would he be attracted to something so conformist?”
“Maybe he got tired of being noticed,” I said.
She stood there for a while, sat back down.
“Maybe I'm doing this because I feel guilty for not being closer to him. But he never seemed to want to get close.”
“Even if you had been close, you couldn't have prevented it.”
“You're saying it's a waste of time to try to stop someone from killing themselves?”
“It's always important to try to help, and many people who are stopped never attempt again. But if someone's determined to do it, they'll eventually succeed.”
“I don't know if Nolan was determined. I don't know him!”
She burst into loud, racking sobs. When she quieted I handed her a tissue and she snatched it and slapped it against her eyes. “I hate this- I don't know if I can keep doing this.”
I said nothing.
Looking to the side, she said, “I'm his executor. After Mom died, the lawyer handling our parents' estate said we should each write a will.” She laughed. “Estate. The house and a bunch of junk. We rented out the house, split the money, then after my divorce, I asked Nolan if I could live there, send him half the rent. He wouldn't take it. Said he didn't need it- didn't need anything. Was that a warning sign?”
Before I could answer, she stood again. “How much more time do we have?”
“Twenty minutes.”
“Would you mind if I left early?”
She'd parked a brown Mustang off the property, out on the bridle trial that snakes up from Beverly Glen. The morning air was hot and dusty, the smell of pines from the neighboring ravine piercing and cleansing.
“Thanks,” she said, unlocking the car.
“Would you like to make another appointment?”
She got in and lowered the window. The car was spotless, empty except for two white uniforms hanging over a rear door. “Can I get back to you? I need to check the on-call schedule.”
Patient's version of don't call me, I'll call you.
“Of course.”
“Thanks again, Dr. Delaware. I'll be in touch.”
She sped away and I returned to the house, thinking about the meager history she'd given me.
Nolan too smart to be a cop. But plenty of cops were smart. Other characteristics- athletic, macho, dominant, attracted to the dark side- fit the police stereotype. A few years bumming around before seeking the security of a city job and a pension. Right-wing political views; I'd have liked to hear more about that.
She'd also described a partial family history of serious mood disorder. A cop judged “different” by his peers.
That could add to the alienation brought about by the job.
Nolan's life sounded full of alienation.
So even though his sister was understandably shocked, no big surprises, so far.
Nothing that came close to explaining why Nolan had sucked his gun at Go-Ji's.
Not that I was likely to get any closer to it, because the way she'd left told me it would probably be a one-shot deal.
In my business you learn to make do with unanswered questions.
3
Milo called two days later, at 8:00 A.M.
“They just gave me another cold one, Alex. I'm not sure I can pay you, though we did get brownie points on the last thing, so maybe.”
The last thing was the murder of a psychology professor stalked and stabbed a few yards from her home in Westwood. Thinking it unsolvable after months of no leads, Milo 's superiors had handed it to him as punishment for being the only openly gay detective in LAPD. We'd learned a few secrets about the victim and he'd managed to close the file.
“Well, I don't know,” I said. “Why the hell should I do you any favors?”
He laughed. “Because I'm such a pleasant fellow?”
I simulated a game-show buzzer. “Try again.”
“Because you're a shrink and committed to unconditional acceptance?”
“Don't go on Jeopardy! What's the case?”
I heard him sigh. “A kid, Alex. Fifteen years old.”
“Oh.”
“I know how you feel about that but this is an important one. If you have any time at all I'd appreciate tossing things around.”
“Sure,” I said. “Come over right now.”
He showed up carrying a box of files, wearing a turquoise polo shirt that proclaimed his gut, wrinkled brown jeans, scarred beige desert boots. His weight had stabilized at around 240, most of it distributed around the middle of his six-three frame. His hair was freshly cut in his usual style, though to use style in conjunction with Milo was a felony: clipped short at the sides and back, shaggy on top, sideburns to the earlobes. Gray was wi
He put the box down on the kitchen table. His pocked face was chalky and his green eyes lacked spark. A long night, or several of them. Looking at the refrigerator, he frowned. “Need I spell it out?”
“Solid or liquid?” I said.
“Been working on this since six.”
“So both.”
“You're the doctor.” He stretched and sat heavily and I heard the chair creak.
I fixed him a cold roast beef sandwich and brought it over along with a quart of milk. He ate and drank quickly and exhaled noisily.
The box was filled to the top. “Looks like plenty of data.”
“Don't confuse quantity with quality.” Pushing his plate away, he began removing bound folders and rubber-banded stacks, arranged them neatly on the table.
“The victim is a girl named Irit Carmeli. Fifteen, slightly retarded. Thirteen weeks ago, someone abducted her and killed her during a school field trip up in the Santa Monica Mountains- some nature conservancy owned by the city. Her school goes there every year, the idea is to get a little beauty into the kids' lives.”