Alphas burden

3CADEN

Avery’s scent follows me long after I let her go. I do my best to finish checking the borders with it tickling my nose. It’s distracting. Far sweeter than I remember when I last caught it on the wind.

I shouldn’t be able to pick up her scent still. Not at this distance, diluted by the smells of nature and other packmates as I venture closer to more populated areas.

Even as an alpha shifter, my heightened senses have a limit. So how the hell am I aware of exactly which direction she’s in on this mountain right now?

Scrubbing my face, I dismiss it as my damn imagination conspiring with my lack of sleep to toy with me.

I know this land like the back of my hand. I’ve committed every mossy patch, every trickling stream, every tree hollow to memory since I was a pup knowing it would become mine to guard and protect when it was my time to take over the responsibility for my father as his successor.

Of course I know where Avery Morgan is. It’s the alpha’s duty to always be aware of his enemies.

Tonight is the full moon. As shifters, our co

Coming off yet another territory squabble between elders doesn’t help. They’re debating over a stretch of land co

It’s not just the trivialities I often have to deal with on top of my day to day agenda. Something’s different today. It’s in the brisk autumn mountain air that’s made me off kilter, acting on odd impulses that I can’t justify—like that inexplicable incident with Avery. It’s growing more noticeable as the afternoon goes on.

Worse, since the moment I sent Avery away, my wolf has been acting strangely restless. He’s more interested in turning around and tracking her over the gnarled roots of the trail she took rather than finish the task at hand. I pointedly ignore the yank on my instincts, continuing my descent along the edge of my territory.

I squeeze my nape to alleviate the tight bunch of muscles, finding no relief. Hopefully when I go to fur later tonight, this agitation will cure itself.

Another waft of fresh honey and summer rain teases my nostrils. I cast a glare over my shoulder.

“You’ve got me nearly believing the pack’s whispers about you becoming a witch up here with this trickery,” I mutter.

The only response is the sway of the branches overhead and the screech of a hawk soaring through the clouds. It’s my memory that supplies the way Avery used to laugh when I told her something outlandish and how brightly her amber eyes would light up with amusement.

Gritting my teeth, I don’t hesitate before swinging my fist against a thick trunk with a growl. The bark splinters, fragments exploding everywhere. A deep crack travels up the wood in staggered breaks. It ends at the base of a large branch that creaks ominously before snapping free, crashing to the ground.

Those memories are off-fucking-limits.

Any happy memories of Avery were locked away the day her family betrayed us, going from our most trusted allies as my father’s beta to a threat when he challenged his alpha for the right to claim the pack.

I stare at the damage I’ve done to the tree and my knuckles. Black fur has sprouted on the back of my cut up hand and my nails have extended into claws. I heave a sigh as the angry gashes in my skin begin to mend thanks to the accelerated healing shifters are blessed with. They’re gone by the time I’ve made short work of breaking the fallen limb into smaller pieces to use for firewood at tonight’s bonfire.

A soft giggle alerts me to an audience peeking at me from behind a holly bush. Two children, a boy and a girl around age ten, step out when I wave them over. The girl bravely comes right up to me while the boy hovers behind her, glancing at me for permission.

I grimace. Kids were never wary of me when I was younger.

“Are you out here playing?” I ask.

The girl nods. They peer up at the abused tree with curious gazes.

Damn it. I hate anyone seeing me lose control. It’s bad enough I have to work daily to make this pack respect my leadership, even four years after I became Alpha at twenty. It was necessary to be firm to ensure they’d follow me when others thought there were other choices better suited to lead the pack than one as young as me.

The girl turns to me. “Are you sad?”

I frown. “No.”

“Mad?” She tilts her head. “Our Da goes into the trees behind our cabin to do that. Our Ma says he’s working on his frustrations.”

“No.” The furrow in my brow deepens with a new worry to add to my endless list. I’m not sure their family name—possibly Merryweather’s pups, but they could pass for the Farrows line with their eyes. “It’ll be di

“Yes, Alpha,” they answer in unison.

“Go on now.”

I watch them scamper away, chasing each other in a zigzag along the trail until they reach the fork that leads towards the central part of the packlands. Once I no longer hear them, I work my jaw, sca

My wolf chuffs in my head, tongue lolling from the side of his gri

It’s not as though I don’t shift every chance I get outside of the full moon. Some packs only let their wolf out once or twice a month. I get too restless to go more than a few days. It’s a waste of a shifter’s power to stay in one form all the time.

I take his taunting as his desire for me to hurry up so we can run and hunt with our pack, gathering the broken up pieces of branch and tucking the bundle beneath my arm.

No, his voice echoes through my psyche, thunderous and commanding. Go back. Find the female.

Some days he deigns to communicate with me with words rather than simply influence my instincts. Usually when he’s being stubborn and wants something I’m not concerned with. Not all shifters can hear their wolf’s internal manifestation when they’re not in their fur, let alone converse with them.

The she-wolf smells good. We should hunt with her. She will be fast.

My brow furrows and I shake my head. He’s wrong. She doesn’t shift. There’s no wolf for us to run with. Even if I wanted to, which I don’t.

He’s barking up the wrong tree. Or maybe he’s gone insane with moon sickness if he thinks I’d want that with Avery. When I take a step, he stops me in my tracks, pulling hard with the need to turn around. I ball my free hand into a fist with the effort to remain planted in place.

This needs to stop. It’s pissing me off now.

He has nothing else to say, growling as he turns around and flops down, tail thumping in agitation. Great, now he’s fucking pouting.

Being at odds with my wolf is a first for me. Typically we’re in harmony, agreeing on when to eat, when to assert our dominance, and when to mark what’s ours. As long as I give him enough time in fur, he lets me do what I need to when it comes to everything else. He doesn’t even have interest in chasing tail the way other males young and old always do, which works fine for me because I have enough on my hands managing pack matters to add juggling the attention of females who only want to fuck the alpha to lord the status over the others for a better cut of meat at di

I don’t have time for any of this. Not with the impending summit.

This year it’s being hosted by Timber Hollow Pack’s alpha, Alistair Ryan. Packs from all over the region gather once a year as part of the accords between the groups of shifters that broke free from the Original Pack hundreds of years ago.

The pack was made up of direct descendants of the first shifters, and it died out thanks to the tyra

Beyond the harsh terrain of Wanderer’s Canyon to the far south, where feral and rogue shifters roam in their wolf forms, the wasteland known as the Deadlands serves as a warning to all shifters in the region of our history before we worked together peacefully.

If all goes well, I’ll be able to improve trade between Silver Falls, Timber Hollow, and our other nearest neighbor, Crescent Valley Pack. It’ll be my first time pushing for anything in this year’s accords. The last few winters have been harsh. Alistair’s pack and Crescent Valley both have better resources than we do on the mountain to sustain them throughout the year, which has only grown more challenging since I made the decision to cut back on unsanctioned travel off packlands.

I spent the most time in Timber Hollow’s territory when other packs hosted me as heir apparent to Silver Falls as part of the peace agreement. It’s a way for those who are next in line can build relationships between nearby packs for trade and learn different methods to lead. It’s Silver Falls’ turn to host Alistair’s heir. I’m hoping that will make Alistair want to support my bid for an updated trade agreement between our packs.

I peer through the trees as the path curves around the south face of the mountain. The forest where Timber Hollow Pack lives is just visible in the distance past the foothills and woods surrounding Ashbury between our territories.

Visiting other packs opened my eyes to many things that make an alpha worthy of leading their pack, but those weeks down in that forest only made me want to come back here. They interact the most with humans and their technology out of all of us, and it was exhausting to regulate control over my more wild behaviors for their sake. Besides, the lake in Timber Hollow doesn’t compare to the natural springs dotting the mountain. I missed hiking to the highest point for the best view in the region and the falls…and⁠—

I cut myself off from reminiscing about what it is that makes this mountain home, tearing my gaze from a fallen leaf that’s the right shade of amber to match⁠—

Fuck. No. I blow out a terse breath and roll my neck, stretching a tense knot from my shoulders.