Black Cherry Blues

I wanted to go into yesterday. And I don't think that's always bad. Sometimes you simply have to walk through a door in your mind and lose thirty or forty years in order to remember who you are. Maybe it's a self-deception, a mental opiate that I use to escape my problems, but I don't care. We are the sum total of what we have done and where we have been, and I sincerely believe that in many ways the world in which I grew up was better than the one in which we live today. I stuck a paperback copy of Ernest Gaines's Of Love and Dust in my pocket, and walked down to Bo

She was one of those girls who love everything about the man they choose to be theirs. She never argued or contended, she was happy in any place or situation where we were together, and I only had to touch her cheek with my fingers to make her come close to me, to press herself against me, to kiss my throat and put her hand inside my shirt. It rained every afternoon, and sometimes after it cleared and the clouds were pink and maroon on the horizon, we'd drive down the levee to the dock where my father kept his boat, the cypress dripping into the dead water, and in the soft light her face would have the color and loveliness of a newly opened flower.

Jimmy Clanton's "Just a Dream" was on every jukebox in southern Louisiana that summer, and car radios at the drive-in were always tuned to "Randy's Record Shop" in Memphis at midnight, when Randy kicked it off with "Sewa

I'll never forget that summer, though. It's the cathedral I sometimes visit when everything else fails, when the heart seems poisoned, the earth stricken, and dead leaves blow across the soul's windows like bits of dried parchment.

My experience has been that grief and loss do not necessarily become more acceptable with time, and commitment to them is of no value to either the living or the dead. The next morning I was back in the Lake County courthouse.

The sheriff looked as hard and round as a wooden barrel. His dark blue suit was spotted with cigarette ash that he had tried to clean off with a wet paper towel; he wore his gray hair in a crew cut, his white shirt lapels ironed flat so that his chest hair stuck out like a tangle of wire. He was one of those elected law officers who have probably been diesel mechanics or log-truck drivers before someone had talked them into ru

"You were a homicide detective in New Orleans?" he said.

"That's right."

"Then a detective in the sheriff's department in… what's the name of that place?"

"New Iberia. Where they make Tabasco sauce." I smiled at him, but his eyes were looking through his cigarette smoke at the blue wink off the lake.

"You know a DEA agent named Dan Nygurski?"

"Yep."

"He was here yesterday. He said I could count on you coming to see me."

"I see."

"He said I should tell you to go back to Louisiana. What do you think about that?"

"Advice is cheap."

"You're wondering about the coroner's report?"

I let out my breath.

"Yes, sir, I am," I said.

"Because you think she was murdered?"

"That's right."

"What for? Who had reason to kill her?"

"Check out Sally Dee's record. Check on a guy named Harry Mapes, too." I felt the heat start to rise in my voice, and I paused.

"I'd give some thought to Purcel, too."

"From what I've been told, these are all people you've had trouble with at one time or another. You think you're being entirely objective here?"

"The Dios are animals. So is Mapes. Purcel killed a guy for some paramilitary crazies in New Orleans. I wouldn't underestimate the potential of any of them."

"Why would Purcel kill her?"

He looked at me with interest for the first time. I dropped my eyes to my shoes. Then I looked back at him.

"I was involved with Darlene," I said.

"He knew about it."

The sheriff nodded and didn't reply. He opened his desk drawer and took out a clipboard on which were attached Xeroxed copies of the kinds of forms that county medical examiners use in autopsies.

"You were right about the bruises," he said.

"She had them on her neck and her shoulders."

I waited for him to continue.

"She also had a bump on the back of her head," he said.

"Yes?".

"But it's going down as a suicide."

"What?"

"You got it the first time."

"What's the matter with you? You're discounting your own autopsy report?"

"Listen, Robicheaux, I don't have any evidence that she didn't kill herself. On the other hand, I have every indication that she did. She could have hit her head on the tub. She could have gotten the bruises anywhere. Maybe you don't like to hear this, but Indians around here get into trouble. They get drunk, they fight in bars, families beat the shit out of each other. I'm not knocking them. I've got nothing against them. I think they get a lousy break. But that's the way it is. Look, if I suspected anybody, it'd have to be Purcel. But I don't believe he did it. The guy's really strung out on this."

"What about Sally Dee?"

"You give me the motive, you put him in the house, I'll cut the warrant."

"You're making a big mistake, Sheriff."

"Tell me how. Fill me in on that, please."

"You're taking the easy choice, you're letting them slide. The Dios sense weakness in you, they'll eat you alive."