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I lay very quietly in the cage. I did not want to stir, and move the chain.
I could hear them together, some feet away, on the furs. They made tiny sounds. I sometimes heard the movement of the chain. I It was she, it seemed, who was slept at his feet, but, as the whim might seize him, I was sure he might have availed himself of any of the women in the place, state slaves, but here, in this place, as his own slaves. He might have drawn forth one of the blondes from her ke
In time he put her from him and she found her tunic and put it on, pulling it down, over her head. She then crept to the foot of the furs and lay there.
I saw her reach up, as though to touch his foot, but then she drew her hand back.
Doubtless she had a name. But I did not know it. I did not know that of the others, either. I did not even know my name!
I lay very quietly, in my chains, in my cages.
How small it was!
I was no more than any of the women here, no more than a slave. Indeed, in a way, I was less than they, for I was a barbarian, and my ears were pierced.
But I felt strangely excited, and moved, and stirred.
Whereas I was terrified to be exactly where I was, to be here, in this specific place, in the depths below the fortress, or city, at the mercy of some misshapen beast, I was not at the discontented that I had been brought to this world, nor was I discontented, though I grasped its perils, to be a slave. Even in the little I had seen of it I had found myself falling in love with this world, with its honesty, its truth and beauty. Surely a brand and collar is a small price to pay for being permitted to come here, to tread such soils, to breathe such air. And here, too, I had learned to be alive, and to feel and experience, with a kee
Here I was given no alternative but to be what I was.
I was grateful, and joyful.
But what mattered such reflections? What matters it whether I am pleased, or fulfilled, or satisfied? It matters not at all. I am a slave, and must serve.
I am choiceless. My will means nothing. How delicious this is to me! I am excited, and thrilled, and stimulated in all my senses, to understand the uncompromising domination to which I am subject. I am owned and must obey, and with perfection! I would not have it otherwise. But even if I wished, I could not have it otherwise. On my neck is a Gorean collar.
Even if I screamed and cried out, and struggled, and wept, and pulled futilely against my chains, and beat on the bars of my cage, nothing would be changed, save that I would be whipped to silence.
It had been done to me.
I was here.
On my neck was a Gorean collar.
The brunette slave lay quietly at the foot of the furs, the chain ru
“Why did you pretend to be asleep?” he asked.
“forgive me, Master,” I said. He was silent.
“I was afraid,” I said. “Forgive me!”
“How is your belly?” he asked.
“My back, Master?” I asked. I thought I must have misunderstood him.