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When she eventually starting solving the problems without me hovering over her copybook with an eraser, it felt like I'd scored a bleeding try, I was so proud of her.
It was ridiculous how much genuine satisfaction I got when those big, blue eyes lit up when she clicked onto a problem.
It was right around the time I was begi
I foolishly allowed my eyes to wander off the copybook Sha
She was still sitting cross-legged and facing me, but she was leaning forward, working hard on a sum, which caused the string top she was wearing to droop, giving me a glorious view of her braless tits.
Sweet Jesus Christ.
I loved tits.
And tits that belonged to this girl were even more appealing.
They were small and perky with rosy-tipped, pebbled nipples.
She was just so fucking beautiful.
I was instantly hard.
"Are you okay?" Sha
"Huh?" I snapped my gaze to her face, totally fucking busted.
"Are you okay?" she repeated, blue eyes locked on mine, expression i
I was about the furthest a person could get to okay.
But for her sake, I forced a small nod and said, "Yeah, I'm just getting a bit hungry."
What the actual fuck, Joh "Can I get you something?" she quickly asked. "What would you like to eat?" You. I would like to eat you, Sha "We should probably think about wrapping this up," I stated gruffly. "It's getting late." I made a big deal of checking my watch only to frown when I realized it actually was getting late. "Shite," I muttered. "It's half six." We'd been up in her room for four hours? Where the hell did the time go? I never missed a meal. I wasn’t even sore. I couldn’t remember the last time I spent four hours sitting down. It didn’t happen. Jesus, this girl was making me lose track of everything. "Um, yeah, sure – of course," Sha Don’t worry, baby, I thought to myself, I'm flustered too. "I really appreciate you helping me," she added, closing her books up and shoving them back in her schoolbag. "You helped me big time." She blew out a breath before adding, "Again." "We can do this again," I offered. "If you want?" Her face lit up and she shifted closer to me. "Really?" I nodded slowly and resisted the urge to reach over and touch her. "You wouldn’t mind?" Sha "No, Sha Stop this, Joh Stop this now! I tried. I truly, honest to god, tried to make my body get off her bed, but she was there, she was right fucking there, and I couldn’t find an ounce of resolve inside of me. I just sat there, knowing what was coming, knowing it was the worst possible thing I could allow to happen, and still wanting it more than my next breath. "Maybe in the library next time," I finally found the words to say. "Or school." Her small, heart shaped face nodded up and down. "Okay." "Because I shouldn’t be here," I added weakly. "In your room." "I know," she replied, voice small and uncertain. "It's, uh…" I swallowed deeply. "I should probably go home now." "Joh "Yeah?" "Hi," she breathed, edging closer. "Hi," I croaked out, fisting her duvet so tightly I was fairly sure I was going to rip the fabric. "Joh "Yeah?" "I’m going to hug you now." She hitched her leg over mine. "Is that okay?" Don’t do it. You'll never get over this girl. "Yeah," I exhaled a ragged breath, feeling my heart smash against my ribcage, as she hovered above me. "That's okay." "Thanks for today," she whispered in my ear as she straddled me. "You're welcome," I replied gruffly, clinging to my self-restraint for all I was worth. Don’t put your hands on her. Too fucking late. My hands moved of their own accord, shooting out to clamp her hips. The sensation of having her on top of me was too much. It was all too fucking much. "I should go," I groaned, as I dragged her on my lap, unable to stop myself from thrusting upwards. Fuck the pain in my groin. I was on fire for this girl. Sha "I don’t want you to go," she moaned – she actually fucking moaned in my ear. Groaning, I sat forward and pulled her roughly against me, hugging on her and rocking on her, and losing my mind in her. You're playing with fire. This girl is going to ruin you. Fuck. "I should go," I continued to tell her as I buried my face in her gorgeous neck and prayed for divine intervention to stop me before I took something from her that I couldn’t give back. Before she took something from me that I could never get back. Because I had never felt this much for anyone. And it was with that knowledge that I knew I could never be selfish with her. "Sha "Oh…of course. I'm so sorry," she whispered as she scrambled off my lap. "If that's what you want?" she added, retreating to the far corner of her bed. No. No, that wasn’t what I wanted at all. But it was the right thing to do. Dammit to hell! With self-control I didn’t know I possessed, I climbed off her bed and stood up. Keeping my back to Sha I knew I was probably freaking Sha I was hurt and horny. It was a terrible combination. Inhaling several calming breaths, I clenched my eyes shut and strived for control, and thought of every un-sexy thing imaginable ranging from my dead grandmother, god bless her soul, to Gibsie in drag. By the time Sha "Joh "Don't be sorry," I replied, tone thick and husky, confident that I wouldn’t traumatize her when I turned around. "It's all good. I'm uh, just…I'm going to go home now." "Okay." She nodded shyly and climbed off the bed. "I'll walk you out." I kept a wide berth of her body as I trailed after her, knowing that if I didn’t there was a good chance I would take her back in that bedroom and mess up beyond repair. Like every time I walked away from this girl, the closer I got to leaving, the more depressed I felt. "So, I guess I'll see you tomorrow?" Sha "Yeah." Shoving my hand into my pocket, I pulled out my car keys. "You definitely will."