Falling Man

Her mother wasn’t dying, was she? Lighten up, she thought.

She opened her eyes, finally, and the two women looked at each other. It was a sustained moment and Lia

Martin stood before the paintings.

“I’m looking at these objects, kitchen objects but removed from the kitchen, free of the kitchen, the house, everything practical and functioning. And I must be back in another time zone. I must be even more disoriented than usual after a long flight,” he said, pausing. “Because I keep seeing the towers in this still life.”

Lia

They looked together.

Two of the taller items were dark and somber, with smoky marks and smudges, and one of them was partly concealed by a long-necked bottle. The bottle was a bottle, white. The two dark objects, too obscure to name, were the things that Martin was referring to.

“What do you see?” he said.

She saw what he saw. She saw the towers.

5

He entered the park at the Engineers’ Gate, where ru

The road bent west and three girls wearing headsets went rollerblading past. The ordinariness, so normally u

She lived in a building just off Amsterdam Avenue and he climbed the six flights to her apartment. She seemed tentative, letting him in, even, strangely, a little wary, and he started to explain, as he had on the telephone the day before, that he hadn’t meant to delay returning the briefcase. She was saying something about the credit cards in the wallet, that she hadn’t canceled them because, well, everything was gone, she thought everything was buried, it was lost and gone, and they stopped talking and then started again, simultaneously, until she made a small gesture of futility. He left the briefcase on a chair by the door and went over to the sofa, saying he could not stay very long.

She was a light-ski

He said, “When I found your name in the briefcase, after I found your name and checked the phone directory and saw you were listed and I’m actually dialing the number, that’s when it occurred to me.”

“I know what you’re going to say.”

“I thought why am I doing this without checking further because is this person even alive?”

There was a pause and he realized how softly she’d spoken inside his jumpy commentary.

“I have some herbal tea,” she said. “Sparkling water if you like.”

“Sparkling water. Spring water. There’s a small bottle in the briefcase. Let me think. Poland Spring.”

“Poland Spring,” she said.

“Anyway if you’d like to check what’s in there.”

“Of course not. No,” she said quietly.

She stood in the entranceway to the kitchen. The small boom of traffic sounded outside the windows.

He said, “See, what happened is I didn’t know I had it. It wasn’t even a case of forgetting. I don’t think I knew.”

“I don’t think I know your name.”

He said, “Keith?”

“Did you tell me this?”

“I think so, yes.”

“The phone call was so out of the blue.”

“It’s Keith,” he said.

“Did you work for Preston Webb?”

“No, one floor up. Small outfit called Royer Properties.”

He was on his feet now, ready to leave.

“ Preston ’s so sprawling. I thought maybe we just hadn’t run into each other.”

“No, Royer. We’re just about decimated,” he said.

“We’re waiting to see what happens, where we relocate. I don’t think about it much.”

There was a silence.

He said, “We were Royer and Stans. Then Stans got indicted.”

Finally he moved toward the door and then picked up the briefcase. He paused, reaching for the doorknob, and looked at her, across the room, and she was smiling.

“Why did I do that?”

“Habit,” she said.

“I was ready to walk out the door with your property. All over again. Your priceless family heritage. Your cell phone.”

“That thing. I stopped needing it when I didn’t have it.”

“Your toothbrush,” he said. “Your pack of cigarettes.”

“God, no, my guilty secret. But I’m down to four a day.”

She waved him back to the sofa with a broad arc of the arm, a traffic cop’s sweeping command to get things going.

She served tea and a plate of sugar cookies. Her name was Florence Givens. She placed a kitchen chair on the other side of the coffee table and sat at a diagonal.

He said, “I know everything about you. A sonic toothbrush. You brush your teeth with sound waves.”

“I’m gadget crazy. I love those things.”

“Why do you have a better voice recorder than I had?”

“I think I’ve used it twice.”

“I used mine but then never listened. I liked to talk into it.”

“What did you say when you talked into it?”

“I don’t know. My fellow Americans,” he said.

“I thought everything was lost and gone. I didn’t report a lost driver’s license. I didn’t do anything, basically, but sit in this room.”

An hour later they were still talking. The cookies were small and awful but he kept nipping into them, unthinkingly, eating only the first baby bite and leaving the mutilated remains to litter the plate.

“I was at my screen and heard the plane approach but only after I was thrown down. That’s how fast,” she said.

“Are you sure you heard the plane?”

“The impact sent me to the floor and then I heard the plane. I think the sprinklers, I’m trying to recall the sprinklers. I know I was wet at some point, all through.”

He understood that she hadn’t meant to say this. It sounded intimate, to be wet all through, and she had to pause a moment.

He waited.

“My phone was ringing. I was at my desk now, I don’t know, just to sit, to steady myself, and I pick up the phone. Then we’re talking, like hello, it’s Do

She went through it slowly, remembering as she spoke, often pausing to look into space, to see things again, the collapsed ceilings and blocked stairwells, the smoke, always, and the fallen wall, the drywall, and she paused to search for the word and he waited, watching.