Pascali's Island

I raised my head and looked down. I was filled with apprehension. He was at the foot of the slope, on my side, just beyond the bushes. He was holding the revolver. 'It is I,' I said. 'Pascali.' Grammatical, in spite of my fear, Excellency.

'Come down here,' he said again, this time in English.

I did so, with what alacrity you can imagine. He stood there waiting. Naked, glistening red, that instrument of death steady in his hand. When we were face to face, I saw a look in his eyes that I recognised – I had seen it the day before in Izzet's: not fury, not dislike, a steady look of murder.

When he spoke, however, his tone was almost equable. 'What the devil are you doing here?' he said. He had a heavy, sweetish smell about him, mingled sweat and oil – he had oiled himself against the sun.

In fear I told him. I had been curious, I said, and being curious had made my way up here. Curiosity, I said, was a primal instinct in homo sapiens, and I had my fair share of it. Besides, there had been particularly strong cause for curiosity in this case, because I had wanted to see what a man would risk losing so much money for, not only his own share, but mine. And more than money was at risk, perhaps he did not realise that our lives were in danger. I told him of the meeting with Izzet, how they had waited for me. Talking thus volubly, I saw the look of death leave his face.

All the same he had not really listened. 'Professional curiosity,' he said, when I had rather breathlessly come to a stop. 'Once an informer, always an informer, I suppose.' There was something of a sneer on his face.

'Indeed yes,' I said, in haste to agree. I was begi

He went over to where his clothes were lying, bent down. When he returned his hands were empty. He turned to indicate the form in the hillside. 'Isn't it marvellous?' he said, and in those blurted syllables there was a kind of confiding enthusiasm. I think he was glad, now that the murderous desire to preserve his secret had passed, to have found someone with whom he could share the experience. 'Too early yet, of course, to identify the period,' he said, with an attempt at scholarly dispassion. I was reminded of his ma

'By God, yes,' I said, taking some steps nearer to it. In fact, the figure gave me feelings of dread, Excellency; or rather, it renewed that dread I had felt some time before, trapped in the gully. It was life-size as far as I could tell, reddish clay-coloured, the colour of the earth that still largely contained it and into which it was half-facing. The contours of left shoulder and upper arm were all that had been so far uncovered completely, the features and head still partially obscured by encrustations of earth; and it was this masking accretion that disturbed me, as I went closer. With the beauty of the shoulder and arm revealed and evident, and head and face bemonstered still by those gouts of clay, there was a sense of affliction and stillness in the form, as of some creature arrested by the gods, punished with partial metamorphosis, flesh into earth.

'Bronze,' Mister Bowles said. 'It is bronze, you know, not stone.'

'Male or female?'

'Oh, male,' he said at once. 'Look at that arm.'

It was extremely hot in this hollow. My feeling of oppression increased. It was due, I think, not merely to the heat, or the ambivalence of the figure in the hillside, but to what I felt as the intensities of feeling expended and retained in this enclosed place. Secrecy, aspiration, fanaticism-I know not what to call it. It was in the red earth and pale rock and the bushes and the liturgies of the bees among the thyme. It was in Mister Bowles's face. Savage was the word that came to my mind. I am sensitive to atmosphere, as I have told you before, Excellency. All good informers are.

I could feel sweat trickling slowly down my left side. 'Beautiful,' I said, vaguely.

'Isn't he?' he eagerly and instantly agreed.

'I think I must leave now,' I said. 'I find it very hot down here. A regular suntrap,' I added, attempting a laughing tone.

He paused, looking at me as if considering. 'Yes,' he said. 'It does get hot down here. I'll stay a little while longer. The work is just getting to an exciting stage, you know.'

'Quite so,' I said.

'Then I've got to clean up a bit before I leave. Fortunately there is water here.'

'Yes,' I said.

Mister Bowles hesitated again, then he said; 'I've got a proposition you might be interested in. Will you come over to my room at the hotel for a drink this evening? I'd like to talk to you. I'd like to explain all this.'

'Very well,' I said.

'About nine? In the meantime, keep this to yourself.'

'Of course,' I said.

'You'll be the loser if you don't.' Mister Bowles nodded significantly and looked intently at me from under the brim of his hat. 'You'll lose everything.' he said.

It was with these words echoing in my mind that I turned away from him, started scrambling up out of the hollow. They are in my mind now. How long I have been sitting here, writing to your Excellency, I don't know. I lose count of time here at my table. Time, in any case, is ru

I have forgotten to eat today and now I am hungry, but there is no food here. Mister Bowles mentioned a drink, perhaps food will be included. Nine, he said. I should think it must be six now, perhaps a little later: the sea has assumed its evening softness and depth, the sky is paling. I must rest a little, Excellency.

The sun had set when I awoke. I made coffee – it is here before me now. I rate the coffee bean above the olive among God's gifts to man. My legs and shoulders ache from the exertions of earlier. I look from my window at the luminous after-glow on the sea. The sky a gauze-rose suffusion. I look along the shore to the darkening hills where I stalked Mister Bowles today. As the sky loses light the trees along the sky line lose distinctness, they soften like charred wood. Minutes after this charring of the trees darkness will fall, abruptly, like some dark stuff with scents in its folds, smells of dust and pine and the faint brackish odour of the night-time sea.

Again, as on that first evening, the evening of our meeting, I picture Mister Bowles in his room. He will stand at his window, looking out at the nightfall. How, I wonder, did he become what he is? Natural delinquency or some process of disillusionment? Perhaps he discovered his gift by accident, as I discovered mine. I feel we are kindred spirits. Passionate and fraudulent Mister Bowles. Mon semblable, mon frère. How will he keep his bearings in this sudden descent of night? Here in the Levant, darkness comes too soon for the stranger, comes before he has time to create his night-time being. Will Mister Bowles be caught unawares before there is time for the stiff upper lip? It is not like the gradual English nightfall, Excellency, that I have read of in their poets but never seen, resignation coming with the waning light, the waverings of gnats, the last songs of birds. There the heart is given time to attune itself, to find some form of pensiveness or melancholy, not unpleasing. In England they are schooled in this gentle stoicism, but how does he feel here, with darkness imposed like a gesture almost, gesture of extinction? I see him for these few minutes at the window, overtaken by darkness, with the crooked line of his past behind him and the short straight line in front. He stands there, aware of aspirations disappointed, ambitions unfulfilled. And now just one ambition, simple and immense.