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"Thank you, Con," he said.
And suddenly he had a fu
But he couldn't, no matter how he tried, figure what it was.
Con got up and shuffled across the porch, heading for the steps.
"Be seeing you around," he said.
Doc jerked himself back to reality.
"Sure, Con. Be seeing you around. And thanks."
He sat in the chair, not rocking, and listened to Con going down the walk and out the gate and then down the street until there was only silence.
And if he ever was going to get at it, he'd have to go in now and start reading in the journal.
Although, more than likely, it was all damn foolishness. He'd probably never again need to know a thing out of any medic journal.
Doc pushed the journal to one side and sat there, wondering what was wrong with him. He'd been reading for twenty minutes and none of it had registered. He couldn't have told a word that he had read.
Too upset, he thought. Too excited about Operation Kelly. And wasn't that a thing to call it — Operation Kelly!
And he remembered it once again exactly.
How he'd tried it out on Millville, then gone to the county medical association and how the doctors in the county, after some slight amount of scoffing and a good deal of skepticism, had become convinced. And from there it had gone to state and the AMA.
And finally that great day in the United Nations, when the Ellen had appeared before the delegates and when he, himself, had been introduced — and at last the great London man arising to suggest that the project could be called nothing else but Kelly.
A proud moment, he told himself — and he tried to call up the pride again, but it wasn't there, not the whole of it. Never in his life again would he know that kind of pride.
And here he sat, a simple country doctor once again, in his study late at night, trying to catch up with reading he never seemed to get the time to do.
Although that was no longer strictly true. Now he had all the time there was.
He reached out and pulled the journal underneath the lamp and settled down to read.
But it was slow going.
He went back and read a paragraph anew.
And that, he told himself, was not the way it should be.
Either he was getting old or his eyes were going bad or he was plain stupid.
And that was the word — that was the key to the thing that it had seemed he should have been able to just reach out and grab.
Stupid!
Probably not actually stupid. Maybe just a little slow. Not really less intelligent, but not so sharp and bright as he had been. Not so quick to catch the hang of things.
Martha Anderson had forgotten how much yeast to use in those famous, prize-wi
Con had paid his bill, and on the scale of values that Con had subscribed to all his life, that was plain stupidity. The bright thing, the sharp thing would have been for Con, now that he'd probably never need a doctor, just to forget the obligation. After all, it would not have been hard to do; he'd been forgetful of it up to this very night.
And the alien had said something that, at the time, he'd thought of as a joke.
"Never fear," the alien had said, "we'll cure all your ills. Including, more than likely, a few you don't suspect."
And was intelligence a disease?
It was hard to think of it as such.
And yet, when any race was as obsessed with intelligence as Man was, it might be classed as one.
When it ran rampant as it had during the last half century, when it piled progress on top of progress, technology on top of technology, when it ran so fast that no man caught his breath, then it might be disease.
Not quite so sharp, thought Doc. Not quite so quick to grasp the meaning of a paragraph loaded with medical terminology — being forced to go a little slower to pack it in his mind.
And was that really bad?
Some of the stupidest people he'd ever known, he told himself, had been the happiest.
And while one could not make out of that a brief for pla
He pushed the journal to one side and sat staring at the light.
It would be felt in Millville first because Millville had been the pilot project. And six months from tomorrow night it would be felt in all the world.
How far would it go, he wondered — for that, after all, was the vital question.
Only slightly less sharp?
Back to bumbling?
Clear back to the ape?
There was no way one could tell…
And all he had to do to stop it was pick up the phone.
He sat there, frozen with the thought that perhaps Operation Kelly should be stopped — that after all the years of death and pain and misery, Man must buy it back.
But the aliens, he thought — the aliens would not let it go too far. Whoever they might be, he believed they were decent people.
Maybe there had been no basic understanding, no meeting of the minds, and yet there had been a common ground — the very simple ground of compassion for the blind and halt.
But if he were wrong, he wondered — what if the aliens proposed to limit Man's powers of self-destruction even if that meant reducing him to abject stupidity… what was the answer then? And what if the plan was to soften man up before invasion?
Sitting there, he knew.
Knew that no matter what the odds were against his being right, there was nothing he could do.
Realized that as a judge in a matter such as this he was unqualified, that he was filled with bias, and could not change himself.
He'd been a doctor too long to stop Operation Kelly.
Small Deer
Original copyright year: 1965
Willow Bend, Wisconsin June 23, 1966
Dr. Wyman Jackson, Wyalusing College. Muscoda, Wisconsin
My dear Dr. Jackson:
I am writing to you because I don't know who else to write to and there is something I have to tell someone who can understand. I know your name because I read your book, "Cretaceous Dinosaurs," not once, but many times. I tried to get De
Maybe I should tell you, to start with, that my name is Alton James. I live with my widowed mother and I run a fix-it shop. I fix bicycles and lawn mowers and radios and television sets — I fix anything that is brought to me. I'm not much good at anything else, but I do seem to have the knack of seeing how things go together and understanding how they work and seeing what is wrong with them when they aren't working. I never had no training of any sort, but I just seem to have a natural bent for getting along with mechanical contraptions.
De
I don't know how he knows it. He didn't learn it at school and that's for sure. When he got to be 17 and hadn't got no farther than eighth grade, the school just sort of dropped him. He didn't really get to eighth grade honest: the teachers after a while got tired of seeing him on one grade and passed him to the next. There was talk, off and on, of sending him to some special school, but it never got nowhere.