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"Smartass." She stubbed the cigarette into the grass and held out her hand. I passed over the binoculars.
"Just be careful with those." Jase was deeply in love with his binoculars. They still smelled of shrinkwrap and Styro-foam packing.
She adjusted the focus and looked up. She was silent for a time. Then she said, "You know what I see when I use these things to look at the stars?"
"What?"
"Same old stars."
"Use your imagination." He sounded genuinely a
"If I can use my imagination why do I need binoculars?"
"I mean, think about what you're looking at."
"Oh," she said. Then: "Oh. Oh! Jason, I see—"
"What?"
"I think… yes… it's God! And he has a long white beard! And he's holding up a sign! And the sign says… JASON SUCKS!"
"Very fu
He held out his hand; she ignored him. She sat upright and aimed the binoculars at the windows of the Big House.
The party had been going on since late that afternoon. My mother had told me the Lawtons' parties were "expensive bull sessions for corporate bigshots," but she had a finely honed sense of hyperbole, so you had to take that down a notch or two. Most of the guests, Jason had said, were aerospace up-and-comers or political staffers. Not old Washington society, but well-heeled newcomers with western roots and defense-industry co
"Business as usual," Diane said from behind the twin ovals of the binoculars. "First floor, dancing and drinking. More drinking than dancing at this point. It looks like the kitchen's closing up, though. I think the caterers are getting ready to go home. Curtains pulled in the den. E.D.'s in the library with a couple of suits. Ew! One of them is smoking a cigar."
"Your disgust is unconvincing," Jason said. "Ms. Marlboro."
She went on cataloguing the visible windows while Jason scooted over next to me. "Show her the universe," he whispered, "and she'd rather spy on a di
I didn't know how to respond to that. Like so much of what Jason said, it sounded witty and more clever than anything I could come up with.
"My bedroom," Diane said. "Empty, thank God. Jason's bedroom, empty except for the copy of Penthouse under the mattress—"
"They're good binoculars, but not that good."
"Carol and E.D.'s bedroom, empty; the spare bedroom…"
"Well?"
But Diane said nothing. She sat very still with the binoculars against her eyes.
"Diane?" I said.
She was silent for a few seconds more. Then she shuddered, turned, and tossed—threw—the binoculars back at Jason, who protested but didn't seem to grasp that Diane had seen something disturbing. I was about to ask her if she was all right—
When the stars disappeared.
* * * * *
It wasn't much.
People often say that, people who saw it happen. It wasn't much. It really wasn't, and I speak as a witness: I had been watching the sky while Diane and Jason bickered. There was nothing but a moment of odd glare that left an afterimage of the stars imprinted on my eyes in cool green phosphorescence. I blinked. Jason said, "What was that? Lightning?" And Diane said nothing at all.
"Jason," I said, still blinking.
"What? Diane, I swear to God, if you cracked a lens on these things—"
"Shut up," Diane said.
And I said, "Stop it. Look. What happened to the stars?" They both turned their heads to the sky.
* * * * *
Of the three of us, only Diane was prepared to believe that the stars had actually "gone out"—that they had been extinguished like candles in a wind. That was impossible, Jason insisted: the light from those stars had traveled fifty or a hundred or a hundred million light-years, depending on the source; surely they had not all stopped shining in some infinitely elaborate sequence designed to appear simultaneous to Earthlings. Anyway, I pointed out, the sun was a star, too, and it was still shining, at least on the other side of the planet—wasn't it?
Of course it was. And if not, Jason said, we would all be frozen to death by morning.
So, logically, the stars were still shining but we couldn't see them. They were not gone but obscured: eclipsed. Yes, the sky had suddenly become an ebony blankness, but it was a mystery, not a catastrophe.
But another aspect of Jason's comment had lodged in my imagination. What if the sun actually had vanished? I pictured snow sifting down in perpetual darkness, and then, I guessed, the air itself freezing out in a different kind of snow, until all human civilization was buried under the stuff we breathe. Better, therefore, oh definitely better, to assume the stars had been "eclipsed." But by what?
"Well, obviously, something big. Something fast. You saw it happen, Tyler. Was it all at once or did something kind of move across the sky?"
I told him it looked like the stars had brightened and then blinked out, all at once.
"Fuck the stupid stars," Diane said. (I was shocked: fuck wasn't a word she customarily used, though Jase and I were pretty free with it now that both our ages had reached double digits. Many things had changed this summer.)
Jason heard the anxiety in her voice. "I don't think there's anything to be afraid of," he said, although he was clearly uneasy himself.
Diane just scowled. "I'm cold," she said.
So we decided to go back to the Big House and see if the news had made CNN or CNBC. The sky as we crossed the lawn was u
* * * * *
"We have to tell E.D.," Jason said.
"You tell him," Diane said.
Jase and Diane called their parents by their given names because Carol Lawton imagined she kept a progressive household. The reality was more complex. Carol was indulgent but not terribly involved in the twins' lives, while E.D. was systematically grooming an heir. That heir, of course, was Jason. Jason worshipped his father. Diane was afraid of him.
And I knew better than to show my face in the adult zone at the boozy tag-end of a Lawton social event; so Diane and I hovered in the demilitarized zone behind a door while Jason found his father in an adjoining room. We couldn't hear the resulting conversation in any detail, but there was no mistaking E.D.'s tone of voice—aggrieved, impatient, and short-tempered. Jason came back to the basement red-faced and nearly crying, and I excused myself and headed for the back door.
Diane caught up with me in the hallway. She put her hand on my wrist as if to anchor us together. "Tyler," she said. "It will come up, won't it? The sun, I mean, in the morning. I know it's a stupid question. But the sun will rise, right?"
She sounded absolutely bereft. I started to say something flippant—we'll all be dead if it doesn't—but her anxiety prompted doubts of my own. What exactly had we seen, and what did it mean? Jason clearly hadn't been able to convince his father that anything important had happened in the night sky, so maybe we were scaring ourselves over nothing. But what if the world really was ending, and only we three knew it?
"We'll be okay," I said.
She regarded me through pickets of lank hair. "You believe that?"
I tried to smile. "Ninety percent."
"But you're going to stay up till morning, aren't you?"
"Maybe. Probably." I knew I didn't feel like sleeping.
She made a thumb-and-pinky gesture: "Can I call you later?"
"Sure."
"I probably won't sleep. And—I know this sounds dumb-in case I do, will you call me as soon as the sun comes up?"
I said I would.
"Promise?"
"Promise." I was thrilled that she'd asked.
* * * * *
The house where I lived with my mother was a neat clapboard bungalow on the east end of the Lawton property. A small rose garden fenced with pine rails braced the front steps—the roses themselves had bloomed well into the fall but had withered in the latest gush of cold air. On this moonless, cloudless, starless night, the porch light gleamed like a beacon.