Incubus Dreams

I knelt by Jung. “Check Mel,” he whispered.

I didn’t argue with him, though I was pretty sure that it was useless. I reached for the big pulse in his neck and found torn, bloody meat. The carpet around him was spongy with blood. They hadn’t even fed on him. They’d just torn his throat out, not to feed, just to kill.

“How is he?” Jung asked.

“Hudson,” I said.

Hudson was there, and I got up and let him tell Jung the bad news.

Not my job to break the news to the wounded. Not my job. I walked out into the middle of the room. There was movement in the hallway, and it took everything I had not to shoot the medics as they came through.

Hudson had had to call on the headsets, but I hadn’t heard him. Hell of a night.

They descended on the wounded with their bags and boxes, and I walked farther into the room, because there was nothing I could do. I had no power over human mortality. Vampires, some shapeshifters, but not straight humans. I didn’t know how to save them.

“How could you look her in the eyes and do that?”

I turned and found Mendez by me. He’d taken off his mask and helmet, though I was betting that was against the rules until we left the building. I covered my mike with my hand, because no one should learn about someone’s death by accident. “She tore Melbourne’s throat out.”

“She said the other vampire made her do it, is that true?”

“Maybe,” I said.

“Then how could you just shoot her?”

“Because she was guilty.”

“And who died and made you judge, jury, and ex-” He stopped in mid-sentence.

“Executioner,” I finished for him. “The federal and state government actually.”

“I thought we were the good guys,” he said, and it had that note of a child who finally realizes that sometimes good and evil aren’t so much opposites, as two sides of a coin. You toss it one way, and it looks good, another way, and it’s evil. Sometimes it just depends on which end of the gun you’re on.

“We are.”

He shook his head. “You aren’t.”

I have no excuse for what I said next, other than he hurt my feelings, and he said out loud something I’d began wonder about. “If you can’t take the heat, Mendez, get out of the fucking kitchen. Get a desk job. But whatever you do, right now, get the fuck away from me.”

He stared at me.

Hudson said, “Mendez, go get some air. That’s an order.”

Mendez gave us both a glance, then he went for the door. Hudson watched him go, then looked back at me. “He didn’t mean that.”

“Yeah, he did.”

“He doesn’t understand what you do.”

I sighed. “Sure.”

“In the movies, the vampires look peaceful. Nothing here looks peaceful.”

“I don’t bring peace, Sergeant, I bring death.”

“You save more lives than you take.”

“Pretty to think so,” I said.

He clapped me on the back, the closest he’d ever get to hugging one of his people, but I took it for the compliment it was. “You did good tonight, Blake, don’t let anyone take that away from you.”

I nodded. “Thanks.”

“You don’t sound convinced,” he said.

“Let’s just say that after awhile you get tired of having to shoot people who are begging for their lives.”

“They’re vampires, they’re already dead,” he said.

I shook my head and smiled. “I wish I believed that, Sergeant Hudson, I do surely wish I believed that.” I watched them start taking out the wounded. They left Melbourne where he lay, but took the girl from the bed. They were triaging, taking the ones they could save; the dead aren’t going anywhere. Well, none of the dead in this room.