My Name is Legion

I shook my head.

A squirrel looking down from the limb of a tree, he said, and he chuckled briefly. Ignorance of what's important and what isn't. Inappropriate responses. I

We sat there for a long while then.

So we had, traumatized him, he said finally, or whatever other fancy terminology you might want to give it. That is what happened that night. It took a while for it to take effect, but there is no doubt in my mind that that is the cause of the Hangman's finally breaking down.

I nodded. I see. And you believe it wants to kill you for this?

Wouldn't you? he said. If you had started out as a thing and we had turned you into a person and then used you as a thing again, wouldn't you?

Leila left a lot out of her diagnosis.

No, she just omitted it in talking to you. It was all there. But she read it wrong. She wasn't afraid. It was just a game it had played, with the others. Its memories of that part might not be as bad. I was the one that really marked it. As I see it, Leila was betting that I was the only one it was after. Obviously, she read it wrong.

Then what I do not understand, I said, is why the Burns killing did not bother her more. There was no way of telling immediately that it had been a panicky hoodlum rather than the Hangman.

The only thing that I can see is that, being a very proud woman, which she was, she was willing to hold with her diagnosis in the face of the apparent evidence.

I don't like it. But you know her and I don't, and as it tamed out her estimate of that part was correct. Something else bothers me just as much, though: the helmet. It looks as if the Hangman killed Dave, then took the 'trouble to bear the helmet in his watertight compartment all the way to St. Louis, solely for purposes of dropping it at the scene of his next killing. That makes no sense whatsoever.

It does, actually, he said. I was going to get to that shortly, but I might as well cover it now. You see, the Hangman possessed no vocal mechanism. We communicated by means of the equipment. Don says you know something about electronics ... ?

Yes.

Well, shortly, I want you to start checking over that helmet, to see whether it has been tampered with.

That is going to be difficult, I said. I don't know just how it was wired originally, and I'm not such a genius on the theory that I can just look at a thing and say whether it will function as a teleoperator unit.

He bit his lower lip.

You will have to try, anyhow. There may be physical signs, scratches, breaks, new co

I just nodded and waited for him to go on.

I think that the Hangman wanted to talk to Leila, he said, either because she was a psychiatrist and he knew he was functioning badly at a level that transcended the mechanical, or because he might think of her in terms of a mother. After all, she was the only woman involved, and he had the concept of mother, with all the comforting associations that go with it, from all of our minds. Or maybe for both of these reasons. I feel he might have taken the helmet along for -that purpose. He would have realized what it was from a direct monitoring of Dave's brain while he was with him. I want you to check it over because it would seem possible that the Hangman disco

I thought about it, nodded again.

Okay, broken circuits I can spot, I said. If you will tell me where a tool kit is, I had better get right to it.

He made a stay-put gesture with his left hand.

Afterwards, I found out the identity of the guard, he went on. We all contributed to an anonymous gift for his widow. I have done things for his family, taken care of them, the same way, ever since ...

I did not look at him as he spoke.

... There was nothing else that I could do, he finished.

I remained silent.

He finished his drink and gave me a weak smile.

The kitchen is back there, he told me, showing me a thumb. There is a utility room right behind it. Tools are in there.

Okay.

I got to my feet. I retrieved the helmet and started toward the doorway, passing near the area where I had stood earlier, back when he had fitted me into the proper box and tightened a screw.

Wait a minute! he said.

I stopped.

Why did you go over there before? What's so strategic about that part of the room?

What do you mean?

You know what I mean.

I shrugged.

Had to go someplace.

You seem the sort of person who has better reasons than that.

I glanced at the wall.

Not then, I said.

I insist.

You really don't want to know, I told him.

I really do.

All right. I wanted to see what sort of flowers you liked. After all, you're a client, and I went on back through the kitchen into the utility room and started looking for tools.

I sat in a chair turned sidewise from the table to face the door. In the main room of the lodge the only sounds were the occasional hiss and sputter of the logs turning to ashes on the grate.

Just a cold, steady whiteness drifting down outside the window and a silence confirmed by gunfire, driven deeper now that it had ceased ... Not a sigh or a whimper, though. And I never count them as storms unless there is wind.

Big fat flakes down the night, silent night, windless night ...

Considerable time had passed since my arrival. The Senator had sat up for a long time talking with me. He was disappointed that I could not tell him too much about a nonperson subculture which he believed existed. I really was not certain about it myself, though I had occasionally encountered what might have been its fringes. I am not much of a joiner of anything anymore, however, and I was not about to mention those things I might have guessed about this. I gave him my opinions on the Central Data Bank when he asked for them, and there were some that he did not like. He had accused me, then, of wanting to tear things down without offering anything better in their place.

My mind had drifted back, through fatigue and time and faces and snow and a lot of space, to the previous evening in Baltimore. How long ago? It made me think of Mencken's The Cult of Hope. I could not give him the pat answer, the workable alternative that he wanted, because there might not be one. The function of criticism should not be confused with the function of reform. But if a grass-roots resistance was building up, with an underground movement bent on finding ways to circumvent the record keepers, it might well be that much of the enterprise would eventually prove about as effective and beneficial as, say, Prohibition once had. I tried to get him to see this, but I could not tell how much he bought of anything that I said. Eventually, he flaked out and went upstairs to take a pill and lock himself in for the night. If it had troubled him that I'd not been able to find anything wrong with the helmet, he did not show it.

So I sat there, the helmet, the walkie-talkie, the gun on the table, the tool kit on me floor beside my chair, the black glove on my left hand.