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**Good. You have time to listen to a record while I dress."
He switched on his stereo and selected an album.
I shifted uneasily.
// it isn't too long....
He regarded the jacket.
"Five minutes and eight seconds. I've always maintained that it is music for the last hour of Earth."
He placed it on the turntable and set the arm.
"If Gabriel doesn't show up, this will do."
He reached for his tie as the first notes of Miles Davis* Saefa limped through the room, like a wounded thing climbing a hill.
He hummed along with it as he reknotted his tie and' combed his hair. Davis talked through an Easter my with a tongue of brass, and the procession moved before us: Oedipus and blind Gloucester stumbled by, led by Antigone and Edgar—Prince Hamlet gave a fencer's salute and plunged forward, whUe black Othello lumbered on behind—Hippolytus, all in white, and the Duchess of Malfi, sad, paraded through memory on a thousand stages.
Phillip buttoned his jacket as the final notes sounded, and shut down the player. Carefully rejacketting the record, he placed it among his others.
What are you going to do?
**Say good-bye. There's a party up the street I hadn*t pla
"By the way," he asked, "what is your name? I've known you for a long time, I ought to call you something now.'*
He suggested one, half-consciously. I had never really had a name before, so I took it.
Adrastea, I told him.
He smirked again.
**No thought is safe from you, is it? Good-bye."
Good-bye.
He closed the door behind him, and I passed throughthe ceilings and floors of the apartments overhead, then up, and into the night above the city. One eye in the building across the street winked out; as I watched, the other did the same.
Bodiless again, I fled upward wishing there was something I could feel.
HE WHO SHAPES
This is the original novella for which they gave me a Nebula Award at that first, very formal SFWA banquet at the Overseas Press Club, and which I expanded at Damon Knight's suggestion into the book The Dream Master. The novel contains some material which I am very happy to have written, but reflecting upon things after the passage of all this time I find that I prefer this, the shorter version. It is more streamlined and as such comes closer to the quasi-Classical notions I had in mind, in terms of economy and directness, in describing a great man with a flaw.
Lovely as it was, with the blood and all. Render could sense that it was about to end.
Therefore, each microsecond would be better off as a minute, he decided—and perhaps the temperature should be increased ... Somewhere, just at the periphery of everything, the darkness halted its constriction.
Something, like a crescendo of subliminal thunders, was arrested at one raging note. That note was a distillate of shame and pain and fear.
The Forum was stifling.
Caesar cowered outside the frantic circle. His forearm covered his eyes but it could not stop the seeing, not this time.
The senators had no faces and their garments were spattered with blood. All their voices were like the cries of birds. With an inhuman frenzy they plunged their daggers into the fallen figure.
All, that is, but Render.The pool of blood in which he stood continued to widen. His arm seemed to be rising and falling with a mechanical regularity and his throat might have been shaping bird-cries, but he was simultaneously apart from and a part of the scene.
For he was Render, the Shaper.
Crouched, anguished and envious, Caesar wailed his protests.
"You have slain him! You have murdered Marcus Antonius—a blameless, useless fellow!"
Render turned to him and the dagger in his hand was quite enormous and quite gory.
"Aye," said he.
The blade moved from side to side. Caesar, fascinated by the sharpened steel, swayed to the same rhythm.
"Why?" he cried. "Why?"
"Because," answered Render, "he was a far nobler Roman then yourself.**
"You lie* It is not sol"
Render shrugged and returned to the stabbing.
"It is not true!" screamed Caesar. "Not truel"
Render turned to him again and waved the dagger. Puppetlike, Caesar mimicked the pendulum of the blade.
"Not true?" smiled Render. "And who are you to question an assassination such as this? You are no one! You detract from the dignity of this occasion! Begone!"
Jerkily, the pink-faced man rose to his feet, his hair half-wispy, half-wetplastered, a disarray of cotton. He turned, moved away; and as he walked, he looked back over his shoulder.
He had moved far from the circle of assassins, but the scene did not diminish in size. It retained an electric clarity. It made him feel even further removed, ever more alone and apart.
Render rounded a previously u
Caesar grasped the front of his garment.
"Have you an ill omen for me this day?"
"Beware!" jeered Render.
"Yest Yes!" cried Caesar. "'Bewarel' That is good! Beware what?"
"The ides—" ^Yes? The ides—?-
"—of Octember."He released the garment.
"What is that you say? What is Octember?"
"A month."
"You liel There is no month of Octemberi"
"And that is the date noble Caesar need fear—the "non-existent time, the never-to-be-calendared occasion."
Render vanished around another sudden corner.
"Wait! Come backl"
Render laughed, and the Forum laughed with him. The bird-cries became a chorus of inhuman jeers.
"You mock me!" wept Caesar.
The Forum was an oven, and the perspiration formed like a glassy mask over Caesar's narrow forehead, sharp nose and chinless jaw.
"I want to be assassinated tool" he sobbed. "It isn't fairl"
And Render tore the Forum and the senators and the gri
Charles Render sat before the ninety white buttons and the two red ones, not really looking at any of them. His right arm moved in its soundless sling, across the lap-level surface of the console—pushing some of the buttons, skipping over others, moving on, retracing its path to press the next in the order of the Recall Series.
Sensations throttled, emotions reduced to nothing, Representative Erikson knew the oblivion of the womb.
There was a soft click.
Render's hand had glided to the end of the bottom row of buttons. An act of conscious intent—will, if you like—was required to push the red button.
Render freed his arm and lifted off his crown of Medusa-hair leads and microminiature circuitry. He slid from behind his desk-couch and raised the hood. He walked to the window and transpared it, fingering forth a cigarette.
One minute in the ro-womb, he decided. No more. This is a crucial one... . Hope it doesn't snow till later— those clouds look mean....
It was smooth yellow trellises and high towers, glassy and gray, all smouldering into evening under a shalecolored sky; the city was squared volcanic islands, glow-ing in the end-of-day light, rumbling deep down under the earth; it was fat, incessant rivers of traffic, rushing.
Render turned away from the window and approached the great egg that lay beside his desk, smooth and glittering. It threw back a reflection that smashed all aquilinity from his nose, turned his eyes to gray saucers, transformed his hair into a light-streaked skyline; his reddish necktie became the wide tongue of a ghoul.
He smiled, reached across the desk. He pressed the second red button.
With a sigh, the egg lost its dazzling opacity and a horizontal crack appeared about its middle. Through the now-transparent shell. Render could see Erikson grimacing, squeezing his eyes tight, fighting against a return to consciousness and the thing it would contain. The upper half of the egg rose vertical to the base, exposing him knobby and pink on half-shell When his eyes opened he did not look at Render. He rose to his feet and began dressing. Render used this time to check the ro-womb.