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With that, I turned on my heel and marched out of the place ... angry and embarrassed, but confident that I had correctly handled a dubious situation.
It didn't help, however, that as I passed through the door, a shout from the youth came wafting after me.
"And don't come back!"
Chapter Thirteen:
"The secret of popularity Is confidence. "
W. ALLEN
"HOLD UP A minute, partner. We're still together, you know."
I slowed my pace a bit, and Aahz caught up with me, falling in step beside me.
"If you don't mind the observation," he said, "that little scene back there seems to have gotten you a little upset."
"Shouldn't it have?" I snapped.
"Don't let it bother you," my partner said easily. "Locals always get upset with outsiders ... especially when their women start flirting with them. It's a problem as old as the hills. Just ask any soldier or carny person. Don't take it personally."
He gave me a playful punch on the arm, but, for a change, I wasn't reassured.
"But they weren't reacting to an outsider, Aahz.
They were reacting to me. I live here, too. What's more, they knew it. They knew who I was and that I work at the castle, but they still treated me like an outsider."
"As far as they're concerned, you are."
That one stopped me.
"How's that again?"
"Take a look at the facts, Skeeve," Aahz said, more serious now. "Even ignoring your travels through the dimensions, you aren't the same as them. Like you say, you work at the castle ... and not as a chambermaid or a kitchen worker, either. You're one of the main advisors to the Queen, not to mention a possible consort ... though I doubt they know that. Things you do and say on a daily basis affect everyone in this kingdom. That alone puts you on a different social ... not to mention economic ... level from the folks here in town."
That made me pause and think.
My new life and lifestyle had sort of grown up around me over the years. Socializing and/or clashing with kings or mayors had become pretty commonplace, though I had never stopped to consider it. Rather, I had always assumed that it sort of went with the territory when one was a magician. Then again, how many magicians had I met while I was growing up?
Aahz was right. My work with the team had cocooned me away from the rest of society to a point where I took things for granted. The extraordinary had become so ordinary to me, that I had ceased to be aware of, or even consider, how it must seem to the ordinary citizens.
I shook my head abruptly.
"No. There's more to it than that, Aahz. Those people back there didn't like me."
"Uh-huh," my partner nodded. "So what's your point?"
"What's my point*" I echoed a little shrilly. "Maybe you didn't understand me. I said ..."
"... They didn't like you," Aahz finished. "So what?"
"What do you mean 'So what'?" I said. "Don't you want to be liked?"
My old mentor frowned slightly, then gave a shrug.
"I suppose it would be nice," he said. "But I really don't give it much thought."
"But ..."
"And neither should you."
There was a levelness and firmness, almost a warning, in his tone that brought me up short.
Instead of protesting, I struggled for several moments trying to understand what he was trying to tell me, then surrendered with a shake of my head.
"I don't get it, Aahz. Doesn't everyone want to be liked?"
"Maybe at some level," my partner said. "But most people realize it's a wistful hope at best ... like it would be nice if it only rained when we want it to. The reality is that it rains when it bloody well feels like it, and that some people aren't going to like you no matter what you do. The up side is that there are also people who will like you no matter what you do."
"I can't accept that," I said, shaking my head.
"It's too fatalistic. If you're right, then there's no point in trying at all."
"Of course there is," Aahz snapped. "Just don't take everything to extremes. Okay? Reality always lies somewhere between the extremes. Not trying at all to have people like you is as silly as trying too much."
"Is that what I've been doing? Trying too much?"
My partner waggled his hand in front of him in a so-so gesture.
"Sometimes you drift dangerously close," he said. "I think that sometimes you let your desire to be liked get out of proportion. When that happens, it starts to warp your perception of yourself and the world."
"Could you give me an example or two?"
"Sure," he said easily. "Let's start with an easy one ... like taxes. Part of your job right now is to be a consultant on the taxes being levied on the citizens. Right?"
I nodded.
"... Except that people don't like to pay taxes. If they had their druthers, they would get the protection and services of the kingdom without paying a cent. Of course, they also realize that something for nothing is an unrealistic situation, so they accept the necessary evil of taxes. They accept it, but the don't like it. Because they don't like it, there is going to be an ongoing level of resentment and grumbling. Whatever the tax assessment is, it's too high, and whatever the level of services is, it's too low. That resentment is going to be forced on anyone involved with setting the taxes, which includes you and everyone else who works at the castle."
He shook his head.
"What I'm saying is that if you're in a position of decision making and power, such as you are now, you can forget about being liked by the people who are affected by your decisions. The best you can hope for is respect."
"Wait a minute," I said, "are you saying that people can respect you without liking you?"
"Sure," Aahz said easily. "That one I can give you dozens of examples on. Since we're on the subject of taxes and finances, consider Grimble. You respect his skill and dedication even though you don't particularly like him as a person. Right?"
I had to admit that he was right there.
"Better still," he continued, "think back to when you and I first paired up. I was pretty rough on you with the magik lessons, and made you practice even when you didn't feel up to it. You didn't like me for drilling you constantly, but you did respect me."
"Um ... Well, I didn't know you as well then as I do now" I said uneasily. "At the time, though, I guess I had to believe that you knew what you were doing, and that what you were putting me through was necessary for the learning process ... whether I liked it or not."
"Precisely," Aahz nodded. "Don't feel bad. It's the normal reaction to an authority figure, whether it's a parent, a teacher, a boss, or a government representative. One doesn't always like what they make us do, but even in the midst of disliking being forced to do something, one can still admire and respect the fairness and expertise with which they do their job."
He shrugged easily.
"I guess that's it in a nutshell," he said. "You're a likeable young man, Skeeve, but sometimes I think you should worry less about being liked and more about being respected. If nothing else, it's a more realizable goal."
I thought about what he had said for a few minutes.
"You're right, Aahz," I said finally. "Being respected is more important than being liked."
With that, I veered off to head in a different direction than the one we had been walking.
"Where are you going, partner?"
"I'm going to see Bu
I had a fair amount of time to think about what I wanted to say before I reached Bu