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“Your whole forest was heroic, then,” said Ela. “You broke free from all the old cha

“We wanted the knowledge and the machines and the power you humans had. What's heroic about a treaty in which all we have to do is stop killing you, and in return you give us a thousand-year boost in our technological development?”

“You aren't going to listen to any positive conclusion, are you,” said Valentine.

Planter went on, ignoring her. “The only heroes in that story were Pipo and Libo, the humans who acted so bravely, even though they knew they would die. They had won their freedom from their genetic heritage. What piggy has ever done that on purpose?”

It stung Ender more than a little, to hear Planter use the term piggy for himself and his people. In recent years the term had stopped being quite as friendly and affectionate as it was when Ender first came; often it was used now as a demeaning word, and the people who worked with them usually used the term pequenino. What sort of self-hatred was Planter resorting to, in response to what he'd learned today?

“The brothertrees give their lives,” said Ela, helpfully.

But Planter answered in scorn. “The brothertrees are not alive the way fathertrees are. They can't talk. They only obey. We tell them what to do, and they have no choice. Tools, not heroes.”

“You can twist anything with the right story,” said Valentine. “You can deny any sacrifice by claiming that it made the sufferer feel so good to do it that it really wasn't a sacrifice at all, but just another selfish act.”

Suddenly Planter jumped from his chair. Ender was prepared for a replay of his earlier behavior, but he didn't circle the room. Instead he walked to Ela where she sat in her chair, and placed both his hands on her knees.

“I know a way to be a true hero,” said Planter. “I know a way to act against the descolada. To reject it and fight it and hate it and help destroy it.”

“So do I,” said Ela.

“An experiment,” said Planter.

She nodded. “To see if pequenino intelligence is really centered in the descolada, and not in the brain.”

“I'll do it,” said Planter.

“I would never ask you to.”

“I know you wouldn't ask,” said Planter. “I demand it for myself.”

Ender was surprised to realize that in their own way, Ela and Planter were as close as Ender and Valentine, able to know each other's thoughts without explaining. Ender hadn't imagined that this would be possible between two people of different species; and yet, why shouldn't it be? Particularly when they worked together so closely in the same endeavor.

It had taken Ender a few moments to grasp what Planter and Ela were deciding between them; Valentine, who had not been working with them for years as Ender had, still didn't understand. “What's happening?” she asked. “What are they talking about?”

It was Ela who answered. “Planter is proposing that we purge one pequenino of all copies of the descolada virus, put him in a clean space where he can't be contaminated, and then see if he still has a mind.”

“That can't be good science,” said Valentine. “There are too many other variables. Aren't there? I thought the descolada was involved in every part of pequenino life.”

“Lacking the descolada would mean that Planter would immediately get sick and then eventually die. What having the descolada did to Quim, lacking it will do to Planter.”

“You can't mean to let him do it,” said Valentine. “It won't prove anything. He might lose his mind because of illness. Fever makes people delirious.”

“What else can we do?” asked Planter. “Wait until Ela finds a way to tame the virus, and only then find out that without it in its intelligent, virulent form, we are not pequeninos at all, but merely piggies? That we were only given the power of speech by the virus within us, and that when it was controlled, we lost everything and became nothing more than brothertrees? Do we find that out when you loose the virus-killer?”

“But it's not a serious experiment with a control–”



“It's a serious experiment, all right,” said Ender. “The kind of experiment you perform when you don't give a damn about getting funding, you just need results and you need them now. The kind of experiment you perform when you have no idea what the results will be or even if you'll know how to interpret them, but there are a bunch of crazy pequeninos pla

“It's the kind of experiment you perform,” said Planter, “when you need a hero.”

“When we need a hero?” asked Ender. “Or when you need to be a hero?”

“I wouldn't talk if I were you,” said Valentine dryly. “You've done a few stints as a hero yourself over the centuries.”

“It may not be necessary anyway,” said Ela. “Quara knows a lot more about the descolada than she's telling. She may already know whether the intelligent adaptability of the descolada can be separated from its life-sustaining functions. If we could make a virus like that, we could test the effect of the descolada on pequenino intelligence without threatening the life of the subject.”

“The trouble is,” said Valentine, “Quara isn't any more likely to believe our story that the descolada is an artifact created by another species than Qing-jao was able to believe that the voice of her gods was just a genetically-caused obsessive-compulsive disorder.”

“I'll do it,” said Planter. “I will begin immediately because we have no time. Put me in a sterile environment tomorrow, and then kill all the descolada in my body using the chemicals you've got hidden away. The ones you mean to use on humans when the descolada adapts to the current suppressant you're using.”

“You realize that it may be wasted,” said Ela.

“Then it would truly be a sacrifice,” said Planter.

“If you start to lose your mind in a way that clearly isn't related to your body's illness,” said Ela, “we'll stop the experiment because we'll have the answer.”

“Maybe,” said Planter.

“You might well recover at that point.”

“I don't care whether I recover,” said Planter.

“We'll also stop it,” said Ender, “if you start to lose your mind in a way that is related to your body's illness, because then we'll know that the experiment is useless and we wouldn't learn anything from it anyway.”

“Then if I'm a coward, all I have to do is pretend to be mentally failing and my life will be saved,” said Planter. “No, I forbid you to stop the experiment, no matter what. And if I keep my mental functions, you must let me continue to the end, to the death, because only if I keep my mind to the end will we know that our soul is not just an artifact of the descolada. Promise me!”

“Is this science or a suicide pact?” asked Ender. “Are you so despondent over discovering the probable role of the descolada in pequenino history that you simply want to die?”

Planter rushed to Ender, climbed his body, and pressed his nose against Ender's. “You liar!” he shouted.

“I just asked a question,” whispered Ender.

“I want to be free!” shouted Planter. “I want the descolada out of my body and I never want it to come back! I want to use this to help free all the piggies so that we can be pequeninos in fact and not in name!”

Gently Ender pried him back. His nose ached from the violence of Planter's pressing.

“I want to make a sacrifice that proves that I'm free,” said Planter, “not just acting out my genes. Not just trying for the third life.”

“Even the martyrs of Christianity and Islam were willing to accept rewards in heaven for their sacrifice,” said Valentine.

“Then they were all selfish pigs,” said Planter. “That's what you say about pigs, isn't it? In Stark, in your common speech? Selfish pigs. Well, it's the right name for us piggies, isn't it! Our heroes were all trying to become fathertrees. Our brothertrees were failures from the start. The only thing we serve outside ourselves is the descolada. For all we know, the descolada might be ourselves. But I will be free. I will know what I am, without the descolada or my genes or anything except me.”