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"Bill, in free-fall, it doesn't matter who's on top."
"That's not what I--" He smiled when he realized he was being kidded -"I wasn't sure about that, either. Did we ... I mean were we... ? "
"Did we fuck?" She shook her head, not in negation, but in wonder. "Every chance we got, as soon as I stopped chasing Gene and Calvin and noticed that the most man on board was my chief engineer. Bill, I hope I don't hurt your feelings, but I kind of like you like this."
"Like what?"
"You couldn't bring yourself to ask if we'd ... been intimate." She made the pause as dramatic as she could, lowering her eyes shyly, and he laughed. "You were like that before we got to know each other. Shy. I think this is going to be like the first time all over again, and the first time is always special, don't you agree?" She blinked at him and waited what she felt was a reasonable time, but he made no move, so she went to him and pressed close. it had not surprised heri she had needed to make her feelings quite clear the other first time, too.
When they broke the kiss he looked up at her and smiled.
" I wanted to tell you that I love you. You didn't give me any time."
"You never said that before. Maybe you shouldn't commit yourself until you get your memory back."
"I think I might not have known I loved you before. Then ... all I was left with was your face and a feeling. "" trust that. And I meant what I said."
"Mmm. You're nice. Do you remember what to do with that?"
"I'm sure it'll come back to me with practice."
"Then I think it's time for you to start serving under me again. "
It was as joyous as a first time, but without the awkwardness that usually goes along with it. Cirocco forgot everything else. There was just enough light to see his face, just enough gravity to make the heaps of straw softer than the finest silk.
The timeless quality of that long afternoon had little to do with the unchanging light of Themis. She didn't have any place she needed to be; there was no need to go anywhere, ever, for anything.
"Now's the time for a cigarette," he said. "I wish I had one."
"And drop your ashes down on me," she teased. "Filthy habit.
I wish I had some cocaine. It all went down with the ship."
"You can go straight. "
He had not withdrawn from her. She remembered how much she had liked that in Ringmaster, waiting to see if things would get going again. With Bill, they usually did.
This time was a little different.
"Bill, I'm afraid I'm getting a little irritated like this."
He eased his weight onto his hands. "The straw hurting your back? I can take a turn underneath if you want."
"It's not the straw, honey, and it ain't my back. It's a little more personal than that. I'm afraid you feel like sandpaper."
"So do you, but I was much too polite to say it." He rolled off and put his arm under her shoulders. "Fu
She laughed. "If you'd grown spikes, I wouldn't have noticed it a few rates ago. But I wish we had our hair back. I fell pretty silly like this, and it's uncomfortable as hell."
"You think you got it had? I'm growing it back all over. It's like fleas square-dancing on my skin. Pardon me while I scratch." He did so, lustily, and Cirocco helped him get the impossible places on his back. "Aaaah. Did I say I loved you? I was crazy, I didn't know what love meant. Now I know."
Gaby chose that moment to walk in the door.
"Pardon me, Rocky, but I was wondering if we should do something about the parachutes. One of them already floated down the river."
Cirocco sat up quickly. "Do what with them?"
"Save them. They might be useful."
"You ... sure, Gaby. You might he right."
"I just thought it would be a good idea." She looked at the floor and shuffled her feet, glanced at Bill for the first time. "Uh ... okay. I thought maybe I ... could make something nice for you." She hurried from the hut.
Bill sat up and put his elbows on his knees. "Was I reading too much into that?"
Cirocco sighed. "I'm afraid not. Gaby's going to be a big problem. She thinks she's in love with me, too."