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"Yeah. Unfortunately, it's go
"Did he mention anywhere why he did that?" Osborne asked.
"I think he was more than half crazy. Possibly he was suicidal. He sure wasn't doing himself any good with all those pills he took. But he was preparing himself for death, and Victor was the only one he found worthy of leaving it all to. I'd have believed he committed suicide if not for that note. But he didn't write it. I'll swear to that."
We eventually got rid of him, and I went home to fix the di
I fixed lemonade and we sat on my small patio and watched evening gather around us.
I woke up in the middle of the night, sweating. I sat up, thinking it out, and I didn't like my conclusions. So I put on my robe and slippers and went over to Kluge's.
The front door was open again. I knocked anyway. Lisa stuck her head around the corner.
"Victor? Is something wrong?"
"I'm not sure," I said. "May I come in?"
She gestured, and I followed her into the living room. An open can of Pepsi sat beside her console. Her eyes were red as she sat on her bench.
"What's up?" she said, and yawned.
"You should be asleep, for one thing," I said.
She shrugged, and nodded.
"Yeah. I can't seem to get in the right phase. Just now I'm in day mode. But Victor, I'm used to working odd hours, and long hours, and you didn't come over here to lecture me about that, did you?"
"No. You say Kluge was murdered."
"He didn't write his suicide note. That seems to leave murder.''
"I was wondering why someone would kill him. He never left the house, so it was for something he did here with his computers. And now you're… well, I don't know what you're doing, frankly, but you seem to be poking into the same things. Isn't there a danger the same people will come after you?"
"People?" She raised an eyebrow.
I felt helpless. My fears were not well-formed enough to make sense.
"I don't know… you mentioned agencies…"
"You notice how impressed Osborne was with that? You think there's some kind of conspiracy Kluge tumbled to, or you think the CIA killed him because he found out too much about something, or-"
"I don't know, Lisa. But I'm worried the same thing could happen to you."
Surprisingly, she smiled at me.
"Thank you so much, Victor. I wasn't going to admit it to Osborne, but I've been worried about that, too."
"Well, what are you going to do?"
"I want to stay here and keep working. So I gave some thought to what I could do to protect myself. I decided there wasn't anything."
"Surely there's something."
"Well, I got a gun, if that's what you mean. But think about it. Kluge was offed in the middle of the day. Nobody saw anybody enter or leave the house. So I asked myself, who can walk into a house in broad daylight, shoot Kluge, program that suicide note, and walk away, leaving no traces he'd ever been there?"
"Somebody very good."
"Goddam good. So good there's not much chance one little gook's go
She shocked me, both by her words and by her apparent lack of concern for her own fate. But she had said she was worried.
"Then you have to stop this. Get out of here."
"I won't be pushed around that way," she said. There was a tone of finality to it. I thought of things I might say, and rejected them all.
"You could at least… lock your front door," I concluded, lamely.
She laughed, and kissed my cheek.
"I'll do that, Yank. And I appreciate your concern. I really do."
I watched her close the door behind me, listened to her lock it, then trudged through the moonlight toward my house. Halfway there I stopped. I could suggest she stay in my spare bedroom. I could offer to stay with her at Kluge's.
No, I decided. She would probably take that the wrong way.
I was back in bed before I realized, with a touch of chagrin and more than a little disgust at myself, that she had every reason to take it the wrong way.
And me exactly twice her age.
I spent the morning in the garden, pla
I hurried to Kluge's front door. It was standing open. I made a quick search of the house. I found nothing until the master bedroom, where her clothes were stacked neatly on the floor.
Shivering, I pounded on the Laniers' front door. Betty answered, and immediately saw my agitation.
"The girl at Kluge's house," I said. "I'm afraid something's wrong. Maybe we'd better call the police."
"What happened?" Betty asked, looking over my shoulder. "Did she call you? I see she's not back yet."
"Back?"
"I saw her drive away about an hour ago. That's quite a car she has."
Feeling like a fool, I tried to make nothing of it, but I caught a look in Betty's eye. I think she'd have liked to pat me on the head. It made me furious.
But she'd left her clothes, so surely she was coming back.
I kept telling myself that, then went to run a bath, as hot as I could stand it.
When I answered the door she was standing there with a grocery bag in each arm and her usual blinding smile on her face.
"I wanted to do this yesterday but I forgot until you came over, and I know I should have asked first, but then I wanted to surprise you, so I just went to get one or two items you didn't have in your garden and a couple of things that weren't in your spice rack…"
She kept talking as we unloaded the bags in the kitchen. I said nothing. She was wearing a new T-shirt. There was a big V, and under it a picture of a screw, followed by a hyphen and a small case "p." I thought it over as she babbled on. V, screw-p. I was determined not to ask what it meant.
"Do you like Vietnamese cooking?"
I looked at her, and finally realized she was very nervous.
"I don't know," I said. "I've never had it. But I like Chinese, and Japanese, and Indian. I like to try new things." The last part was a lie, but not as bad as it might have been. I do try new recipes, and my tastes in food are catholic. I didn't expect to have much trouble with Southeast Asian cuisine.
"Well, when I get through you still won't know," she laughed. "My momma was half-Chinese. So what you're go
"I forgot. You've been to Asia. No, Yank, I ain't go
There was only one intolerable thing, and that was the chopsticks. I used them for as long as I could, then put them aside and got a fork.
"I'm sorry," I said. "Chopsticks happen to be a problem for me."
"You use them very well."
"I had plenty of time to learn how."
It was very good, and I told her so. Each dish was a revelation, not quite like anything I had ever had. Toward the end, I broke down halfway.
"Does the V stand for victory?" I asked.
"Maybe."
"Beethoven? Churchill? World War Two?"
She just smiled.
"Think of it as a challenge, Yank."
"Do I frighten you, Victor?"
"You did at first."
"It's my face, isn't it?"
"It's a generalized phobia of Orientals. I suppose I'm a racist. Not because I want to be."
She nodded slowly, there in the dark. We were on the patio again, but the sun had gone down a long time ago. I can't recall what we had talked about for all those hours. It had kept us busy, anyway.
"I have the same problem," she said.
"Fear of Orientals?" I had meant it as a joke.
"Of Cambodians." She let me take that in for a while, then went on. "When Saigon fell, I fled to Cambodia. It took me two years with stops when the Khmer Rouge put me in labor camps. I'm lucky to be alive, really."
"I thought they called it Kampuchea now."
She spat. I'm not even sure she was aware she had done it.
"It's the People's Republic of Syphilitic Dogs. The North Koreans treated you very badly, didn't they, Victor?"
"That's right."
"Koreans are pus suckers." I must have looked surprised, because she chuckled.
"You Americans feel so guilty about racism. As if you had invented it and nobody else-except maybe the South Africans and the Nazis-had ever practiced it as heinously as you. And you can't tell one yellow face from another, so you think of the yellow races as one homogeneous block. When in fact Orientals are among the most racist peoples on the earth. The Vietnamese have hated the Cambodians for a thousand years. The Chinese hate the Japanese. The Koreans hate everybody. And everybody hates the 'ethnic Chinese.' The Chinese are the Jews of the east."
"I've heard that."
She nodded, lost in her own thoughts.
"And I hate all Cambodians," she said, at last. "Like you, I don't wish to. Most of the people who suffered in the camps were Cambodians. It was the genocidal leaders, the Pol Pot scum, who I should hate." She looked at me. "But sometimes we don't get a lot of choice about things like that, do we, Yank?"
The next day I visited her at noon. It had cooled down, but was still warm in her dark den. She had not changed her shirt.