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She pulls back to look at me with tear-soaked eyes. “But you—”
“Yes, I tried to kill myself. But that was out of strength, not instability.”
It was how I pla
A final fuck you.
All it took was a hair-dryer and a warm, soothing bath.
I don’t even remember what it felt like. The electrocution. The death. One second, I was lying in the scented water. The next, I opened my eyes to Robert’s angry face looming over me as he paused chest compressions while I lay on the chilling wet tiles of the bathroom floor.
“Did Luther go easier on you afterward?”
“No. It never gets easier. You need to remember that.”
“Then how did you survive?” She punishes me with her sorrow. Kills me with her pained tone. “How could you…?”
I shrug. “Luther gave me no choice.”
He kept me on a leash for weeks, dragging me everywhere he went. There was no reprieve from his horror. No respite from the constant onslaught of mental and physical torture. “But right now, you have a choice, Lill. You can either give him exactly what he wants or you’ll be sent some place far worse than this.”
Her lips tremble as her tears fall. “I’m not strong like you.”
“You are. You have to be.”
She sniffs and nuzzles back into my shoulder as heavy footfalls approach along the hall.
There’s more than one set, the deep pound resembling a pack of men.
Robert, Luther, and Chris pass the open doorway, not glancing in our direction before they continue out of sight, the front door slamming shut moments later.
“They must be going to get Luther’s son.” I kiss her forehead and slide from the bed. “We need to get ready.”
She doesn’t budge. It’s clear she doesn’t have the strength to appease Luther’s depraved fantasies, and my heart breaks at the imminent goodbye. She might last another week. Maybe a few days.
“Come on, Lill. Get dressed. Do your hair. It’s better to fly under the radar than draw attention by being unprepared.”
She sinks farther under the covers. “In a minute.”
The ache in my chest grows arms, squeezing me from the inside, painfully compressing my ribs.
I can’t let her weaken me. I can’t soften for her.
I can’t. I can’t. I can’t.
“Okay, beautiful girl.” I swallow over the lump in my throat. “Come find me if you need me.”
As much as I want to—as much as I’ve tried with other women—I can’t save her.
I can’t save any of them. I can only provide guidance to help lengthen their stay. And right now is one of those moments when leadership is key.
I stalk from the room, going in search of my friends—my sisters—finding Abi, Chloe, and Nina in the living room, each of them sitting on different armchairs.
“Morning,” I offer in greeting.
They turn toward me, their eyes questioning. They won’t ask how my night of horrors went. Not verbally, anyway. But I see the need for answers in their matching expressions of concern.
“Did you know Lilly is still in bed?” I ask.
Abi lowers her gaze to the floor.
“She didn’t want to join us.” Chloe slumps into her chair. “She’s given up.”
“And I don’t know what else to do.” Nina pushes to her feet and comes to my side, lightly wrapping an arm around my waist to snuggle into me. “Nothing I say seems to sink in.”
“We’re all wasting our breath.” Abi continues to stare at the carpet. “She’ll be gone soon. We’re better off getting used to—”
“Stop.” I warn. “Don’t talk like that. Ever. Do you hear me?”
They all react in their own defensive ways.
Nina nestles closer into me. Chloe weaves her arms around her waist, self-soothing. And Abi scowls, strengthening her resolve to distance herself from the emotional loss.
“We stick together. Always.” I stare at Abi until she meets my gaze. “Always.”
She winces as Nina nods against my shoulder, the room filling with silence for a few beats before Abi sighs. “Did you hear about Luther’s son?”
“Yes. And I think Luther left a few minutes ago to retrieve him, so we need to prepare.”
“For what?” Chloe asks.
“Anything.” I inch away from Nina so I can look her in the eye. “We all have to expect the unexpected. Sometimes visitors come and go without drama. But other times…” I let the sentence hang. They’ve already lived through enough torment to come to their own conclusions.
“What should we do?”
“Start tidying up. Make sure the house is clean. At least that way Luther won’t have an excuse for additional punishment.” It will also give my sisters something to occupy their minds.
“Fine.” Abi huffs. “I’ll vacuum.”
“I’ll dust.” Chloe pushes from the sofa.
Nina’s tired eyes turn my way. “I guess I’ll clean the bathrooms.”
“And once I get ready, I’ll tidy the kitchen.” I try to smile and hope I’m exuding calm instead of the nauseating anticipation twisting my stomach. “Don’t worry. We’ll be okay.”
They don’t respond to the placation as they leave the room. We all know a threat looms close. It’s only a matter of the severity.
I try to follow my own strategy to keep myself occupied as the sand in my mental hourglass dwindles.
I grab a pair of shoes. I do my hair, finger-combing the long strands into a messy plait. The make-up I put on is understated and simple. I don’t want to accentuate my features any more than necessary. Only enough for Luther to think I’ve made an effort.
I’m in the kitchen, wiping down the counter when the faintest sound of an approaching car brushes my ears.
“They’re here,” Tobias calls from another room. “My brother is here.”
I stalk into the living room, finding Abi, Nina, and Chloe frantically scrambling to pack their cleaning supplies.
“Don’t panic.” I maneuver around the coffee table, then the sofa, and squeeze by Nina to get to the curtains and gently glide them an inch aside. “Take a few minutes to breathe.”
I listen to my own advice and slow my inhales, letting the air from my lungs gradually as Luther and Chris stride toward the house. But it’s the men climbing from the parked car who steal my attention.
They’re both tall, broad, with one man looking toward the house to reveal a face resembling Luther so closely it’s clear he must be the son.
My hatred is instantaneous.
No introduction is necessary to determine he’s the scum of the earth. Not when I’ve already heard enough whispers to know this confident man lazily strolling for the mansion doors is yet another monster.
“Go get Lilly.” I glance over my shoulder and meet Nina’s gaze. “Reassure her everything will be fine.”
She nods and quickly leaves the room, Abi and Chloe following behind her while I release the curtain to fall back into place.
The front door opens in the distance. Tobias greets them with words I can’t decipher before he rushes back down the hall in the opposite direction. Heavy footsteps approach, accompanied with murmurs from men without souls.
I toe off my shoes and creep across the room, listening, eavesdropping, and plaster myself to the wall beside the doorway. I hear disjointed conversation as they approach, none of which makes any sense. Then I spy a glimpse of Luther and Chris as they pass the living room and continue toward the back of the house.
Their guests walk by a few seconds later, and I stiffen at the malevolence ebbing from them. I can feel their malicious intent.
I wait for the footsteps to move farther along the hall before I attempt a peek around the doorway. The Luther lookalike is focused, eyes straight ahead, while his companion carries his menacing frame with confidence. He’s strong, his suit-covered frame hiding what I assume is a lethal body beneath.