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“That’s not fair. I wasn’t on meds messing with my head. You are.”
“Let me get this straight. So, you’re up here,” Ollie said with a finger pointing up in the air, “and you forgot to take me with you,” another tear fell down his face as his chin trembled, “You lost your bloody grip on me.”
“I never lost my grip. You slipped!” It was my turn to cry, but my tears didn’t come out as easily as the guy standing before me. Mine struggled, each one a painful remainder of the words he left me with seven months ago. “No matter what, as long as you stay away from me until we leave here, I’ll still belong to you.”
“This is ridiculous,” Ollie wiped his face into his sleeve and drew in a deep breath, “I can’t stay away from you.”
“It’s the only way this will work. What you did in the hallway broke me. Seeing you kiss Maddie killed me even more. I can’t sit back and watch. There will be nothing left of me after the year is done. It’s the only way, Ollie. You have to stay away from me.”
Ollie’s face twisted, unable to comprehend what I’d said. His green eyes strayed from mine as if looking at me was too painful and ran a palm down his face, turning his back to me. “Dammit, Mia,” he managed to get out through each struggling breath. His palms hit the bookshelf as he leaned over and hung his head. “Are you so goddamn selfish, you don’t care what you’re doing to me right now?”
My head shook as I took a step back.
“What are you waiting for?” Ollie’s palms hit the bookshelf before he straightened his posture. He spun around to face me and slapped himself in the chest. “Go on and finish me off!”
Tears streamed down my face. “What do you mean?”
“You just broke my fucking heart, and yet you’re still standing there. The least you can do is grant me the favor of finishing me off by walking away because you know I can’t so much as breathe without you. So, fucking leave!” He pointed toward the exit fixing bloodshot, challenging eyes on me. “Go!”
Everything inside me wanted to comfort him, but it would only undo the purpose of this. The only reason I’d pushed him away was because I was weak and scared. For over eleven years, I was dead. If his destruction brought me back to that place, I didn’t know if either one of us could survive this year. In the process of protecting myself, I risked the chance of losing him. Knowing losing him was a possibility already had regret coursing through me.
I turned and ran through the maze back toward the entrance of the library on legs I could no longer feel beneath me.
Ollie’s words from last year circled in my brain, “as long as I don’t stray too long or far, I always find my way back.” At the time, he had been talking about getting lost in the library, but I silently prayed the same would go for me.
Though after the pain I just caused him, I wasn’t so sure I deserved his love at all.
Before I reached the door, a hand gripped my wrist and spun me around.
“Right now,” Ollie breathlessly said, pulling me away from the door. “I’ll stay away for a year, but I want you right now.” His unforgiving hands grabbed my face, and his thumbs swept the tears staining my cheeks before he crashed his lips to mine.
ollie.
MIA WANTED A YEAR without me, but I was taking right now with her. A slow-burning rage filled me, and I needed to fill her to release it. Be inside her. Smother this anger with our co
I grabbed her plump, pouty lip between my teeth as I walked her backward into the desk. In one quick and precise swipe, I cleared the desk clean of all clutter—even the monitor fell over, but neither one of us cared as I lifted her eagerly off the floor and over the edge of the aged wood.
Mia’s hands pulled off my beanie, and her nails dragged up my scalp, only stimulating my need for her, kissing her harder in a silent cry for co
Unclothed and perfect, she sat before thousands of books we’ve run past, and I etched every detail of hers into my brain. Her hair, twisted with dark and light shades, fa
She leaned back on her hands while we both panted in unison from our taunting separation. My sight touched every inch of her skin, her desperate eyes watching me do it. “Why are you looking at me like that?” Mia asked. She tilted her head to the side with a small curve of her lips beside her tear-stained cheeks.
“It’s been eight months, love, and you expect me to stay away for another ten. I need to hold on to right now for as long as possible.” I slowly withdrew my shoes, jeans, and boxers as if we had no other place to be.
“And how do you suppose you’re going to do that?”
After spreading her legs apart, mine buckled and, like a feind, I was back on my knees. “We’re taking our fucking time.” My eyes drifted up her curves and back to hers. “I’m not going to make you remember me, Mia. I’m going to make it where you can’t remember anything else.”
Mia’s small smile was enough to engulf me in a windstorm of feelings, bringing me back to where we were before.
Before our time apart.
Before the pills.
Before I turned into the colossal mind-fuck of a man.
A time where we existed.
My devotion and bond to this girl was unbreakable, and my kiss against her abdomen was a silent promise that I would violate every rule she placed against me. There was no way I could go another year. Our love was our breach, and it would go against every force of science because no pill could keep me away. I refused to allow it.
Gripping the insides of her thighs, I spread her wider as my knob pulsed below, blood rushing to every surface at the close proximity, though my desire to taste her was stronger. She was already wet for me, glistening as she pooled at the base, and so that spot was where I started. Treading my tongue up through her folds, I kept my eyes on her and waited for that small reaction I’d been dying to see.
Her eyes closed.
Her head fell back.
And her hips rolled into my mouth for more.
And I fucking took it.
Both of my thumbs spread her apart before I drank her in.
The sweet taste of Mia Rose revived me in more ways than one.
My tongue knew every detail, design, and feature and what made her break away against me. In no time, I had her legs shaking as I opened her up and inhaled her slowly. Her fingers gripped my hair, begging to be filled, but I could never get enough of her taste. Her legs clenched around me, and I lifted her off the desk, guiding her to the floor until she was sprawled out for me. Like an obsessed addict, I drove my tongue inside her to appease my appetite for her flavor—of Mia.
Her walls convulsed against my tongue as her heartbeat dropped to her core.
Kneeling between her legs, emotions built up inside of me, ready to break chains and move mountains. Holding back became an impossible task, and I admit, I was defeated.
“Ollie…” she moaned in a desperate plea, and it was all the motivation I needed to merge with her. I fell over her trembling body as her walls tightened, and wrapped around my aching dick—beating along to the rhythm of the orgasm I just gave to her. My fingers dug into her thighs to stop her movements. Otherwise, I would’ve busted inside her right then and there.