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Chapter 66 Oakley
There are a million things I wish I’d done differently that night.
I wish I never drank or did drugs.
I wish I never blamed Bianca for telling my dad the truth about Crystal.
I wish I never got behind the wheel and killed Hayley.
But most of all?
I wish I didn’t hurt Bianca.
Not because she’ll never forgive me—her forgiveness isn’t something I’m seeking—but because it destroyed the trust and faith she had in me.
In us.
Because in the end, I did the one thing I swore I would never do to her.
I left.
And forced her to clean up the mess I made all by herself.
Because it hurt too damn much for me to stay.
I knock on the door of her dorm room, hoping like hell she’ll answer it.
Dylan texted me a half hour ago and said Bianca showed up at their apartment ready to burn it down to the ground because Jace lied to her about losing our baby.
Honestly? I’m surprised she didn’t.
I saw the way she looked at me—with so much pain and agony—I can only imagine the anger she must have spewed at her brothers.
Which is why I’m here now.
I can’t make things right, and I can’t force her to talk to her family again.
But I can show her where to direct all that resentment and pain.
Because while the universe obviously deems me unfit to ever be a father.
Bianca will make a great mother someday.
And I don’t want her thinking that any part of what happened is her fault.
I need her to place the blame where it belongs.
This way she can heal and move on.
Because I want the best for her.
And whether or not she hates me, it will never change the fact that I will always love her.